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Recieved: 2004/11/15 01:38
Subject: RE: [K-list] process
From: Diamondsutra
On 2004/11/15 01:38, Diamondsutra posted thus to the K-list:
My God Guy:
What a letter! What an experience! It caused me to realize that I never
considered that about 8 of the 11 years I was with Rajneesh might have been
years of kundalini.
Those were years in which I was absolutely FULL of energy. I would be
physical from 6 am in morning till midnight, most days. 2 hours of yoga per
day followed by an hour and half of Jane Fonda workout then dynamic
meditation (Osho's-a lot of jumping and hollering and breathing and dancing--
not for wimps) and then later in the day after breakfast, running, swimming
and steam and sauna 6 days a week, doing psychic readings, having lots of
rebirthing sessions done on me, weight lifting and jazz dance classes between
2 and 4 times a week and then vigorous dancing with other sannyasins most
nights, also kundalini meditation (a lot of shaking and dancing and then some
silent sitting).
During this time I was still raising my 4 children, who were mostly older
teens and travelling a lot to psychic fairs by plane, staying in hotels and
reading up to 14 people a day.
I ended up in Australia with this travelling for about 3 years and was hit
with the disabling part of kundalini during l990, after Osho died.
I never made the connection between this activity and Kundalini til your
letter. Of course, nothing I did even approaches the extremity of your
story. Seems to me its a miracle you are alive. I feel the miraculous in my
own live.
Thanks for your story.
love and blessings, Deesutra
Guy Johnson <guy3rdAThotmail.com> said:
> Hi Steve and Deesutra,
>
> The range of K is most interesting. First I ate mostly meat when
my
> Kundalini awakened. I only had six months of the initial experiences
> meditating all night trying to make happen whatever it was that I had found
> so pleasurable as my suspiction was that it was going to be one super
orgasm
> but then I had a incredable awakening that was indescribable at the age of
> 22. I was empowered by kundalini. I worked as a fisherman seven days a
> week. My strength and endurence were of epic perportions. Much of this
was
> directed this way to burn the energy and avoid self examination. I worked
> 20 hours a day doing heavy physical work and partied at night. I did not
> know what had happened to me until 3 years later. Physicaly I would pick
up
> a VW Beatle on a bet. I often would not sleep for months at a time and
> suffered no adverse symptoms other then some spectacular accidents although
> I did have a short bout of collitus about six months after my awakening but
> it cleared up immediatly after leaving my first wife. I frequently left
> port when every sane fisherman was hauling their boats to go and play in
> hurricanes. On one occasion I held the helm for 36 hours strieght and
> grinned the whole time with delight My ego was also huge and not knowing
> any better I thought the energy and myself ego included was one and the
> same. It wasn't till I met a Yoga teacher three years later that I
realized
> what had happened and tried my best to run from it for 15 more years. I
> continued to perform feats of strength and endurence including sexual
untill
> my injuries forced me to live differently. At that time if I had not
healed
> my self emotionaly I would have somehow destroyed myself. I also must add
> here that because of the physical abuse I had endured as a child I had no
> emotions and no feelings believing my body was a tool and it better live up
> to whatever I asked of it. An example is; I ripped my left foof off on
> sept. Friday the 13th and left the hospital two days later and started to
> build a 72 ft sailing ship. I took no pain meds but tied the leg up out of
> my way with my belt and started framing the ship on one leg without
> crutches with two young boys to lug and carry. This behaviour was extreme
> and does not in any way reflect the person I have become. The paths you
> describe are very similar to my wifes who only recently has shed much of
the
> darkness that has been her life.
>
> Love and live
> Guy
>
> >From: <diamondsutraATnetidea.com>
> >To: k-listATKundalini-Gateway.org
> >Subject: [K-list] process
> >Date: Sun, 14 Nov 2004 14:34:44 -0800
> >
> >**please remember to delete most of email you are responding to, before
> >posting your comments to the list.**
> >
> >
> >
> >Hello Steve:
> >
> > I can say that I have often over these 13 years that I've had kundalini
> >experienced what you are dealing with now. For the first 4 years it wasn't
> >possible for me to do even the most menial tasks. I had to have
> >home-makers
> >come in and sweep, vacuum and cook and shop and do laundry for me. Because
> >kundalini had put me on disability, these services were, blessedly
> >provided.
>
>
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