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Recieved: 2004/09/30 12:13
Subject: RE: [K-list] A Series of Thoughts
From: Gustaf Grefberg
On 2004/09/30 12:13, Gustaf Grefberg posted thus to the K-list:
Thank you for the very amazing and inspiring words!
I definitely understand the experience of being in a loop, were we
constantly try to define ourselves with more definitions, kinda like being
stuck in a loop of male energy. I've found from personal experience that
was has been most profound is to not worry about the mind or the intellect
at all. When K is awake, this happens on its own, if we let it. Swami
Satyananda once said "Don't worry about the mind, let the mind worry about
itself" And then basically continuing that with the tantric approach and K
that the mind will simply follow suit when the balanced energies are allowed
to come into us.
Indeed the strongest, and most profound changes in my life have come from
allowing.. During the times of allowing there has been no struggle from
neither intellect nor ego.. They just follow suit!
Sincerely
Gustaf
A Series of Thoughts: to help clear the way for intellect to surrender
fear
of change and allow spiritual growth.
As I communicate my truth and offer my experiences to those who seek
knowledge about energy, awakening and spiritual development, I have
witnessed a single, unifying block. Namely, that the very kind of
sensory
learning that spiritual seeking requires is in direct opposition to the
kind
, of learning we embrace, become and treasure as students in the more
traditional intellectual sense. Even those who are drawn to the eastern
ways of meditation and pursuit of inner peace seem to find conflict
between
thinking and feeling. The former valued as superior to the latter
pervades
our human consciousness. If I have accessed a single point of
divergence
between what I propose as a way to the light, and what has come before
me,
is that few can find the inner faith to step away from that conditioned
honoring of intellect, and allow the feeling process to take its
rightful,
significant place in the process of spiritual development. If intellect
is
male, linear, directed and focused, feeling is open, wide, female,
intuitive
and flowing. To embrace a state of balance, where the two forces work
in
harmony, is a crucial element in the process of being the light.
Many spiritual traditions propose that awakening is an intellectual
pursuit,
and the process of achieving it one of tremendously complicated steps.
Language is derived from our intellectual need to separate and define
things. It the basis of how we know the outer world, the places we
share,
the experiences we have. Words and scientific process both serve to
delineate and refine into smaller and smaller increments any topic of
discussion. (foot note chaos theory) While this skill most certainly
served humankind extremely well in our creativity and invention for our
success as a species, we are now at a place of new opportunity. Having
nearly mastered the art of refinement and delineation, the scales become
nearly imbalanced in that direction, and we are called upon to to view
our
planet as a whole, for our own survival, to view the similarlities
between
and amongst our mingled cultures rather than the differences, and to
come to
know our inner selves from the heart, and not simply the mind.
The traditions which evolved language, and the descriptions of how the
energy moves in the body, are not necessary for an awakening. I had
never
heard of a chakra system before I raised my kundalini, or any other of
the
many explanations such as "three channels of the spine." An enormous
volume
of literature serves to massage the intellect and prolong the process of
learning to "be" since the healing of emotions is a feminine feeling
process. For the masters who came before, all attempts to bring their
experiences to the world of intellect was necessary in order for them to
be
heard. So extreme and different were their knowings, that few would
ever
fully embrace the possibility. Today, however, many are called and
drawn to
a path of enlightenment, many have accessed experiences that were known
only
by the elite masters, many are struggling to find that balance between
living and loving in an enlightened space while housed in a world of
intellectual and material supervaluation.
(How TO)
Clearing the mind with meditation may begin this journey, but many find
this
alien to their way of living. One sets limitations on oneself when one
requests the knowing without the meditation. There is an alternative to
silencing the mind in meditation. This will be determined by you. What
do
you do in your life that is so absorbing as to allow you to forget time?
Do
you find peace when you run, climb mountains, listen to music, paint,
garden
or something else. Find this place of silence and by mindful living and
honoring the importance of your specific Way, expand and bring that
silence
into your daily existence. The intellect and the constant defining of
self
with repetitive thoughts is all that stands between your Self and a
state of
being. In other words, you have a choice to experience life with the
wonder
of a child, and may do so by asking the intellect to serve as a silent
observer of self in an ongoing, moment to moment, living with awareness
meditation. This may sound easy, but it requires diligence in observing
self
and how the self interacts with the world.
Ego
Here it is appropriate to define ego in the context that I use
it.
First, the Ego is the verbal self. Language, and everything communicated
through speech, writing, or the memory bank, evolves through that medium
defined as the intellect's definition of "Self. " It is the most obvious
manifestation of Ego. The internal library which carries all the visual
scenes of our earthly existence, and Ego-allowing reruns of the past,
which
is important
in the Ego's role of reinforcing self- image. Our emotional history,
both
from the immediate life-history and the
inherited, past-life, emotional history, combine to form our
basicpersonality. This part of the is Ego is that which most of us
believe
is unchangeable. In order for a human to evolve to a state of
enlightment,
the Egomust shift, to allow a change in how we define ourselves. All
three
catagories must be dealt with. I find the best first step is to find the
space between words, or a form of meditation. I advocate meditation
without
a mantra. A mantra occupies the intellect and allows easy access to an
altered state. However, when the intellect is occupied, intellect best
serves the process of being. It becomes a passive, but fully aware,
observer
of the exploration of the inner self.
The human intellectualual fallicies of judgement and differentiation do
not
exist in a silent mind. They are replaced by the beautiful, loving
energy of
divination within. A danger that resides here is that the Ego attaches
to
the experience of the Divine Energy and identifies itself as Divine,
without
the emotional healing of the human state having occurred beforehand.
Behavior, or use of divine energy, and knowledge are then tainted by the
interpretation of the Ego who is ruled by unhealed emotions.
In the case of an awakened kundalini, the individual can use female
energy
to enhance male energy, but cannot be fully be in touch with, or enhance
the
feminine with the male energy. The unbalanced Guru has awsome personal
power, but in truth is nothing if not balanced by his/her female side.
The emotional world must be examined with a clear intellect. Damaged
emotional responses need to be identified, relived, and felt on a
cellular
level, and then released to spirit. An acknowledgement that PROCESS is
the
key to love, (not purification of the self, or ego, or being) sets one
free
to the flow and life/love of the feminine. A freed emotional being is
grounded, and the freed emotions become the tenticles of awareness of
the
world. The individual is free to be grounded so he/she can become fully
integrated with the feminine/dark/processing/universal aspects of self.
The visual record, without the noise of the intellect constantly
defining
itself and preventing self-examination, fades and loses
importance. Enlightenment is not the destruction of Ego, but rather
surrendering one's Ego to the Soul and the Soul's Divine purpose.
The role of the intellect becomes one of service, with an awareness that
the
intellect is not Soul, but a passive observer and helpmate, honed and
skillful in its role of liasson between physical reality and Soul
energy.
Unattatched to belief structures intellect identifies patterns of
emotional
behaviour investigating the origin of the trauma causing compulsive
behaviour from this life or inherited through the DNA and orcastrating
the
reexperience of the emotion and surrender freeing ego to feel in the
moment
in an ongoing State of Being. The Ego is not the enemy of enlightment,
but
a beautiful instrument
to be tuned, designed and played to your liking.
We can release our souls from the prison of our beliefs. Without the
walls
that confine us, we can soar and expand into universal truth. To know
the
divine is to know that we know nothing. This is why a truly enlightened
soul
is humbled in awe. Here, our knowledge is unified, speechless, simply a
state of "being". All beings, enlightened or otherwise, are limited by
their
personal ability to surrender their traditions, heal their emotions, and
entrust their beliefs to the Divine.
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