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Recieved: 2004/09/28 15:53
Subject: RE: [K-list] Full Moon?
From: Earth Angel


On 2004/09/28 15:53, Earth Angel posted thus to the K-list:




Rene said:
 It´s not the others, it´s me. I learn
that I am responsible for myself at all levels. Don´t know yet how to handle
that completely but I was invited to start exploring, trail and error, and
grow, grow, grow. The most beautiful journey of life…

Sue replies:
(((((Rene))))),
Thank you...yes it helped very much.
 I see myself in you also and somehow, there is comfort there knowing
that we create our own depressions by allowing our mind to be filled
with valleys and not peaks. (I really liked that)

One thought that did come to me during this is darkness is
 that I truly never have thought I was enough for anyone...let alone
myself. I'm getting better at recognizing my worth now.

I have not found the courage to go out on my own, away from
my relationship of 36 years. Sometimes it IS very good and some
of the time it feels very painful to me. (somehow, I don't think
 leaving my relationship is the answer)
 I'm finding the more I find myself, the less it matters how
 someone else interacts or doesn't interact with me. There are just those
times of weakness, where I leave my self too vulnerably
open and lacking in self love, that I fall into a dark abyss, like this
passage with the full moon.
3 years ago, I did find the strength to go out and do something
for me in the form of massage school. I now have a Reiki/massage
business that I run out of my home. To be able to help others through
their dark nights of the soul, has helped me become a much
stronger individual and more confident in me. But I still have my moments
as you have heard.
 It is easier to see the pluses in my life now and
I can only attribute that to following what feels like
bliss to me. Before now, I would have not lived my joy
and instead, embraced the next wave of illness and suffering.

Thank you for your wonderful input. Your words have been so
healing for me, as I too recognize 'me' in them.
As you so aptly said:
"grow, grow, grow. The most beautiful journey of life…"

That IS what this is all about!
Love
Sue




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