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Recieved: 2004/08/30 19:28
Subject: Re: reiki + K. RE: [K-list] anxiety
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent


On 2004/08/30 19:28, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:





At 09:55 AM 30/08/2004, Shadow121ATaol.com wrote:
>Hi, i've had my kundalini awakened 4 years ago , intense tingling and
>anxiety\fear. i've been trying to do work on my chakras so that i can
>maintain a
>normal and balanced life, but it doesnt seem to take. i had one
>rekie\reflexology
>session earlier this summer. my energy has gotten more and more screwed up,
>regardless of what i want , it seems like it is its own master.

    Yes, it is it's Master and yours too.

>so what the hell
>am i doing in here (my body) for?

  Coming along for the ride. :) Goddess is you, too ...

>i guess it comes down to 'i dont really
>know what's going on and i'm looking for some ground to stand on so i can
>be the
>person i am used to being.

    Well, I think letting go of trying to go backwards would help a lot.
You are like a teenager resisting puberty, who wishes they were still a
child instead of anticipating the adult they will mature into when the
process is done.

    Life moves forward, let go of the past. The person you were before
awakening is gone. Move forward into the evolution of the amazing new
person Goddess is reshaping you into. The growing pains can be weird, but
when they are done you will be happier and wiser than the old you was. Just
like how puberty is an awful time of life, but growing into an adult is
inevitable and wonderful.

>Mystress Angelique Serpent MystressATfire-serpent.com wrote this and i replied
>with >>>
>
>
> It is simple, I'll try it in point form:

     Point form evidently did not provide enough clarity for you... :)

> 1) the ability to channel energy is natural in humans, we do it
>unconsciously all the time. Hardware built into the design, by Goddess. No
>reiki required. Just love and imagination.
>
> >>>so you mean when i look out the window i am channeling energy? maybe
>my flow is out of whack.

    Yes, to a degree... energy follows attention. What you focus on, you
feed with your attention and it gets bigger in your life. "What you focus
on, will grow." You need to focus on moving forward into what Goddess is
making you into. Focus on being grounded.
    What I was meaning though, is if you think of someone with love, your
love flows to them. People do this naturally, all the time. When a Mother
holds her child, loving it, the energy she channels to the child is more
essential to its growth than food. It is like how premature babies have a
better survival rate if they are cuddled and caressed, loved.

> 2) What reiki is: ki means chi or prana. Sky energy. Abundant, but
>stupid... needs to be directed. The intention behind implanting the reiki
>symbols is to direct your chi energy to flow in a certain way, which is
>coded into the symbols themselves. Like traffic signs, or a computer program.
>
> >>>that is interesting that the energy is stupid.

    To clarify: Chi/ki/prana is stupid, Kundalini is infinite intelligence.
Smarter than you.
    You are an FST member, aren't you? Re-read the Earth and Sky energy
lesson, or the shorter version of it here:
http://kundalini-teacher.com/lessons/air.html

>since my awakening i
>have been 'listening' to it. now that i look back on it , i was listening
>to a
>bunch of misdirected buzzes and tingles. even though i am awakening ,
>should i
>get a rekie treatment?

    Patrick, this email was about how Reiki is not good for Kundalini...

>i am planning to get healing touch level1 certification
>soon.
> >>>so what is the proper way to go about correct energy flow and an
>awakened kundalini?
>
> 3) Human energy, is not static, it evolves. Walling it in by symbols is
>like what happens when a river is constrained to it's banks by cement
>dikes. The nature of a river is to wander, and the result is imbalance,
>flooding.
>
> >>>so why is the kundalini river made upon cement banks? maybe for me ,
>it has yet to sink into my cells of my body. how should kundalini be
>controlled
>then? much of me has been trying to 'tame' myself from the wild energy that i
>am.

    I dunno how, but you read this email and got it all backwards. Reiki
makes cement banks, K likes to smash them. Kundalini should not be
controlled! Trying to control it causes problems. Let it have it's way with
you, Goddess knows best.

> 4) Reiki is a duality based system, in that it makes distinctions
>between "good" and "bad" energy. Kundalites are on a road to nonduality so
>at a certain point in the individuals spiritual evolution, the symbols
>become limiting. You are seeing that Love is All that Is, and the symbols
>are still trying to filter and control. You outgrow them, but it is coded
>into them that they are permanent and not to be messed with.
>
> >>>so good and bad are like 'dark chi' and 'light chi'?

   Yes!

>even so , the
>kundalini energy is absolute? that's confusing.

   There are 2 kinds of energy, you are confusing chi, prana, ki with
Kundalini... Chi can be light and dark, in our perceptions but Kundalini
just Is.

> so , maybe , i am using a polar
>direction , when what i know is that it is all energy , prana , ki , ect. all
>change comes from within , right?

    Using a polar (vertical) direction is good, it is the grounding. Ki,
chi, prana is sky energy, we get it from trees and wind.

> 5) Kundalini is not chi based, it is Shakti energy, consciousness.
>Kundalini uses chi as She sees fit, and does not take direction. Most of
>the sensations of K are feeling the movement of chi in the body, under the
>direction of Shakti as She cleans the temple. So the symbols become a place
>of resistance. Kundalites energy needs to flow as Goddess Wills, not as Mr.
>Usui or John Doh! wanna be Master thought was a good idea.
>
> >>>ok , this has completely screwed me up. the Shakti energy. this femanine
>energy permeating my body. looking to be complete, when i am a guy and ...
>well
>, yea i guess looking to be complete. but it makes me feel like a girl , how
>do i balance that out? sometimes i'll feel like i am a girl because of this.
>it's not cool , what should i do?

    Surrender to feeling like a girl sometimes, it is part of the process
and it will pass. It is part of the balancing of your male and female
energies. You are both, your ego is male and your unconscious is
female. The process is the love affair between you and Goddess. Sacred
marriage. Let your guy side and your girl side makes love to each other!



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