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Recieved: 2004/08/19 10:07
Subject: RE: [K-list] Spontaneous Awakening
From: Ranbir Singh
On 2004/08/19 10:07, Ranbir Singh posted thus to the K-list:
I'm not sure but its sounds to me like either your brow has been pierced or
you have broken the third knot, either way it is very good.
If there's more please go on. :)
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Subject: [K-list] Spontaneous Awakening
This happened to me about a year a ago and bear with me as it's hard to
describe the experience in complete detail although it's still extremely
vivid to
this day.
For about two to three months a spirit (angel?) had been comunicating with
me. I tried not to let it distract me from my daily activities but she would
pop
up at the most random times. She had a voice that was like a soft whisper
that echoed for miles (very enchanting). I knew I could trust her just by
the
sound of her voice and she seemed to have intentions with me by the things
she
would say. Let's call her Betty because that's the name she told me was
hers. I
could tell she was very powerful by the energy she would send me and very
telepathic because the things she would tell me would end up playing out in
real
life. As all this stuff was happening she kinda started to trip me out
causing
me to act somewhat neurotic in my comunication with people.
Before I get to the spontaneous awakening first I have to tell you what I
think led up to all of this... I had read a book by Robert Bruce entitled
Astral
Dynamics (The MOST comprehensive book on the subject) which delt a lot with
energetic development. I decided to develop my energy by practicing
activating
my sub-chakras (the ones of the hands feet and limbs) leading up to
activating
my primary chakras with the appropriate colors. I did this for about an hour
each day for aproximately two years. I started becoming extremely sensitive
to
the world around me and other peoples energies specifically. Well, after
about
two years of this energetic development Betty came into my life.. Back to
the
story.
I had insomnia one night. My mind was wide awake but I was totally relaxed.
I
was lying in bed with my eyes closed listening to Betty speak for about
three
hours (her voice would always build up an intensity in my body). The time
was
about three in the morning. Out of nowhere this light started building up
right inside my third eye like I had never seen before. This light grew
brighter
and brighter like no light of this earth. It was a pure white light. As it
filled the room (my eyes still closed), I began to see a figure emerge from
within the light. I imediately realized it was Betty. She was beautiful and
flowing
with intense energy. I could tell she was very old and wise. She asked me if
I was ready so I told her I was (this may have been my mistake because I was
naive in thinking I could take on the world). She slowly reached for me and
touched me on my third eye. In the instant she touched me I felt this
fluttering
that I would describe as thousands of butterflys within my entire body and
this energy expanded my very own energy literally a thousand times (imagine
the
intensity). I felt huge and so amazingly powerful. She then told me to show
them how. I didn't understand what she meant at the time so I started
talking
about compassion and respect for life. She then told me I did good. My
spirit was
on a different plane of existance. My energy was flowing in a way not even
the most intense psychadelic experience could induce. Her energy, along with
the
light, began to fade but the energy Betty ignited remained. I didn't sleep
at
all that night. I felt like my spirit had been reborn within me. As morning
came I began to hear the birds chirping (this is when I started tripping
out).
At first I thought about how beautiful the birds chirping was but they
seemed
louder than the should've been. I assumed my senses were just more sensitive
because of the sustained increase in my body's energy. I started to get
scared.
I felt TOO powerful. I eventually calmed myself down. My dad had scheduled
to
pick me up from my house and take me to see some psycholigists over at UCLA
(remember I had been acting neurotic). My dad thought that I had been using
drugs as I had been exhibiting symptoms but I had been sober for over a
year.
Anyway he came to pick me up and take me to his house for a little while
before
going to see the "specialists". As we drove to his house I noticed something
strange. I still heard the birds chirping but I looked around and there
weren't
any birds (i became confused). Was it in my mind? How is that possible? They
sounded too real. Everywhere I went I heard birds chirping. In the house, on
the road, and eventually in a UCLA building. When it was time for me to see
the
psycho therapists I couldn't handle the energy. It was way too intense. My
physical mind began to lose grasp of what was going on and at the same time
my
spiritual mind felt enlightened. It was a contrast in need of balance that I
couldn't overcome. They made me fill out a paper of psychoanalytic type
questions. They needed to determine if I needed hospitalization. Because of
the
intensity of my energy and my loss of mental stability I knew that would be
the best
thing for me.
There's so much more to this story i'd like to say but I really hope I'm not
boring you. To shorten it up, I went into the hospital for evaluation. It
wasn't a padded room. There were many people there all for differing
reasons. I
spent a month there and they put me on medication. For the time I was there
I
could see everyones auras extremely bright and vividly. I never told them
about
my experince because I knew their rationality would consider it psychosis
and
would never consider it spiritual. They never determined what my condition
was
but suggested schizophrenia. Anyway, I went with the program and I'm still
on
medication (a year and a half later) and their slowly taking me off of it. I
haven't had any psychotic episodes since I got out of the hospital and i've
come to grasp my new found sensitivity and what that experience implies as
well
as Betty's intentions. I stopped doing energy work because I new that could
trigger another psychotic episode. But there's one thing from the experience
that hasn't changed. After she touched my third eye it filled with an
intense
energy and difinitive pressure never left. I feel this pressure and energy
of my
third eye 24 hours a day and this has been going on since the experince over
a
year and a half ago. Sometimes I get visions and hear astral
music/phenomenon
but mostly I tune it out, at least until i'm ready to use my power
(kundalini?). I know I wasn't ready for the experince, who knows maybe I was
and I just
didn't know it although I thought I did, but I wouldn't replace the
experince
for anything in the world. It has made me a more aware human being, of
course
after I came to grasp the significance and got used to the energy.
Well, that's my story (part of it anyway). Maybe you have opinions of it? If
so, i'd love to hear them. For now, peace, love, and light.
~~~Shawn Grey
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