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Recieved: 2004/03/19 19:36
Subject: Re: [K-list] K high
From: Deepak Srinivasan
On 2004/03/19 19:36, Deepak Srinivasan posted thus to the K-list:
I have a question about the same, since we have free
will, and we can manifest our reality, it could be in
concordance or not with the divine truth and our
purpose of incarnation,
hence, what was felt as a gut feeling before, may have
been either out of fear, or higher intuition, so, is
any gut feeling like uneasiness not true higher
purpose?
yeah, the manifestation thing has been happening real
amazingly, but somehow, it the past few days, i seem
to have slipped back into mental projection living,
not in the NOW...and last night i tried to fight it,
but to no avail, i have tried not to enter the pool of
self-anger becoz i "couldnt keep up with my own
promise" to go ahead....
also, there is this one particular relationship that
is giving me a lot of mental stuff...
it was the same relationship that brought me to the
brink of hopelessness and despair and out of sheer
anger with life and how mediocre it was everytime i
got into being with the peoplefolk, i decided to set
all my beliefs and perspectives right and not throw
blame on either myself or an external
force...accepting responsibility and letting go to a
better way of learning the same things...
but somehow, this relationship has come back
mentally...
it was the weirdest thing, i was in a same sex
relationship and this person was like my complete
other...same life experiences and all, yeah magic
right from the beginning until we started our control
dramas with each other....
when we used to make love, he felt it first that i was
like his brother and i have felt that many times
too....
and just recently, i had vague intuitions that we had
at first decided to incarnate in the same womb, but
somehow felt that the two families we were born into
would offer interesting differing perspectives,
i also remember asking my mom a dozen times if i was
born with another as i felt i should have, and always
feeling and wanting a twin...i was fascinated with
twins and wanted one and somehow felt that i had one
out there...
REALLY WERID!
but my question is, it this all true or am i just
imagining things, and then they will turn true?
who to test truth? i dont want to project a wrong
image out there and hamper with the progress and
purpose of his soul and mine, especially since it was
his decision to move on...
i have constantly been "letting go" but then a weird
stomach churning starts and i feel like i need to
reach out, and like he's calling out...
anyone with some wise inputs?
Deepak
--- JulietteCrouchATaol.com wrote:
>
>
> i was thinking that. everything seems to have calmed
> down. It's as if
> everything went mad to get all the blocks cleared so
> we can all move to the next
> stage. well that's how i feel. i definately feel
> that a transition has occurred.
> Everything seems to be flowing and manifestignalot
> smoother and quicker...
> have been thinking and within a bout an hour or so
> the thing manifests....
> have to be carefull. although we all have to be
> vigilant of our thoughts as we
> progress. Allowing ourselves that spilt second
> before we allow the thought to
> fully arrive to asses whether is it for the highest
> good.
> It's amazing as the unoiverse smiles at us and holds
> our hands as we journey
> to the centre of oursleves.
> with love and light
> Juliette
>
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