To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/03/13 14:50
Subject: Re: [K-list] meds poll/stand up
From: v
On 2004/03/13 14:50, v posted thus to the K-list:
I have had experience with various psychotropic medications for
various symptoms which in the end I only attribute to PTSD and a touch
or 2 of manic/depression. Or so I was told...
I took lithium for years, because it was a natural mineral, and I
didn't feel any different. Then i lost my first born son to a fluke
"diaphragmatic hernia", and blamed it on lithium and I quit it. ..
I took Topamax for a couple years, and it helped chronic pain and I
didn't feel much different from myself. But suddenly I
started being too tired all the time, and shuffling in my gait, and
people said I looked over-medicated, so i quit. What musta happened was
my metabolism changed and reacted to Topama xx
Now all I take is a small amount of Effexor - an anti-depressant -
and Vioxx for pain, and Seroquel to sleep (you can see that it does me a
fat lot of good).
Nothing has ever worked on my naturally-acquired over-sensitivity,
skittishness, and woo woo unpredictable attitudes, except time and
processing and a sense of humor.
I have always been a loner, over-sensitive (or "just sensitive
enough"), moody, a smart-alek, a cynic, highly imaginative, and a
general pain in the ass to left-brained type nine to five people. I
have "fit in" before with artists, writers, poets, theatre people,
spiritual people, and musicians. It's just not a world which is
conducive to such types.
As a child I was "gifted and talented", it is only as an adult that
suddenly I am suddenly encountering the term "mentally ill". I *hate*
that nomenclature! I prefer to think of my state of mind as a
"pedigree"...
I have finally figured out, that I am the same soul and person that I
was as a child. -And that knowledge makes me stronger.
But this isn't about "me"...
I think "1984" - the George Orwell novel - is coming true in the
concept of "soma" - a drug(s) which makes everyone lethargic, euphoric,
and/or able to be manipulated .. I think these times - when suddenly
everybody has a "fashionable disorder", or some kind of "syndrome" ,
and is on medication of some sort, is NOT a coincidence.
In the 50's women were indoctrinated with "home economics" and men
drove big gas-guzzling cars and acted like James Dean, in the 60's youth
rebelled and an influx of grace polarized people around the Vietnam war,
in the 70's we had "disco", polyester, and other signs of
disenfranchised good taste, in the 80's we had the "ME generation", the
90's were the 60's turned upside down, the millenium change did NOT
bring armaggedon (yet). What is the common bond underlying all these
generations?
Oil $$$ and the big bucks which continues to perpetuate the suicidal
age of fossil fuel burning energy, that's what!
Money is power, and power breeds corruption. Logically speaking, the
big buck corporations have all bought stock on Wall Street to support
each other, and the pharmaceutical companies are BIG business too.
I can just imagine how the current mass "spiritual awakening" of
people must strike the fear in the hearts of rich and greedy men. "Old
Money" feels threatened by the possibility of change for the better,
preferring to remain elitist from the "common good". As we can observe
from considering Dubya - "the rich get richer, and the poor get poorer"
And in the face of careening out of control overpopulation, I think
the Oil Baron "elitists" - who have the ear of all the other big $
elitists, wish to exert control over the common plebians. Suddenly on
TV we have big buck ads for Zoloft, and Paxil - addressing zillions of
TV viewers to consider their typical and very realistic bad attitudes as
"depression", and a symptom which can be treated with modern
pharmaceuticals. Bullsh*t! if we are depressed, we just need to work
it out in real life, not drugged into the next century...
We have read recently about the kundalini symptoms which seem so
much in common with "mental illness". Since when have we legally been
required to mix "church and state"? The damned government is mixing
up the same guaranteed "constitutional rights", by imposing
right-winged christian coalition "moral majority (which is neither)"
standards on people in general. If you find THAT so scary, what's to
keep anyone from turning the tide to include the fact that - spiritually
awakening people are NOT "mentally ill", and any suggestion to the
otherwise is an infringement of their personal and guaranteed
constitutional freedoms'??
F*ck their propaganda and subterfuge!
LOLOL! Hahaha Hillary! Does this rant answer your questions 1-6 yet?
In conclusion, although I have experimented time and time again with
various mood stabilizers and anti-depressants,
it has all been futile, alas, and at best - I was "over-medicated".
I have undergone a real struggle on this issue.
Speaking from experience, except perhaps in the extreme cases of
sociopaths , psychopaths, and other people completely removed from
social-reality, psychotropic drugs interfere with clear thinking and the
self-actualization experiences as described by Abraham Maslow. I can
only surmise that yoga, deep breathing, meditation, a balanced life, a
good laugh daily, and time - will heal all wounds.
just because...doesn't mean they aren't out to get you,
v
ps (oh please God, leave me with my sense of humor at least! ))
pps (stand up and be counted!)
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