To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/03/12 10:50
Subject: Re: [K-list] playing with body/mind
From: v
On 2004/03/12 10:50, v posted thus to the K-list:
forrest,
uh - omg I can relate!
I understand about the "anxiety" - wanting to die instead. I have
been suspicious of "getting stoned" even tho I am more apt to find some
sorta solace in mundane and trivial matters - like housework - when i
*am* (stoned). God likes that! So does my daughter!
I was rear-ended by a lumber truck back in 1989 when i was pregnant
and also had a 150 lb. Giant Schnauzer dog named "Fate", plow into me at
that time. I have done yoga, and I have tried "mind over matter", but
nothing works as good as VIOXX. Adjusting to the psychological and
spiritual side of being in chronic pain has been a journey that I feel
inadequate to positively relate. I can only say that I've been there
too.
I appreciate your attraction to the "Friends". I myself have thought
they were simple enough to make the traumas go away. Unfortunately,
there is no Quaker Church up here. And besides, my life is not simple
enugh.
I used to find, by my pride, that the Christian Church forefathers
were assholes, liars, cheats, manipulative, and dense to opaque
numbskulls. Well, actually, I still do. But that has nothing to do with
the teachings of Christos. And you finding solace in Him as an
avatar is a blessing indeed!
I am worried though. You describe physical symptoms that need
attending to by a sensitive doctor. I recommend that you look for a
woman . I think what you describe physically is beyond the auspices of
simply "kundalini, and cannot be rationalized by spiritual awakening. I
think you've had a life unawares of your body, and now your body is
rebelling. My sense is that you need to find yourself a good MD, and NOW!
We are not - any of us - immortal. I know that is hard for a poet to
believe, but it is true.
You think - that Jesus said for you to come on here and rationalize
your physical symptoms of suddenly facing your physical problems, but
that is not true. You yourself are looking for a reason to NOT go to the
doctor, and take more responsibility for your own health !
I am also a Virgo, and my daughter has terminal constipation too.
I have enough to worry about already, w/o you trying to find another
spiritual reason for your malaise, besides good ol' fashioned,
constipation,
OMG - I am *so* charming, ain't I?
well, i don't care as long as you prioritize your health and see a
qualified physician.
I'm so sorry to be the one to take you to task - just nobody
else said a danged thing - and i thought you might some feedback. Your
health worries me, and - in this case - I would stop looking for
"kundalin"
causes, and consult an empathetic doctor.
Just because some people seem so "cock-sure" of their beliefs, does
not detract from the fact that we are our own best Source, inside...
your physical is apparently in danger - please attend!
best of intentions,
v
ps ( i may never post again)
talk to ya later,
v
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