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Recieved: 2004/01/10 19:03
Subject: [K-list] My Story (my last post)
From: Ben Frocklage
On 2004/01/10 19:03, Ben Frocklage posted thus to the K-list:
Dear all,
Hello to you all. I would simply like to tell my story and also
give a little advice, to anyone that wants it. I would like to say that if
you do not want my advice, that is perfectly fine, iam only doing this with
the intention of helping somone and anyone, and even if no one is helped,
that is perfectly fine, but at least i can say i did my best. But please
understand iam not forcing beliefs or anything on anyone.
Well i have always belonged to a church named Self Realization
Fellowship. And a few years ago i awoke my kundalni in deep meditation. I
had intense good and also not so good experiences. In the beginning i felt
intense stinging pain and such, like i was being electrocuted. Just an
example of my symptoms. But eventually my kundalini mellowed out, with the
help of a little medication, and i began to live a relatively normal life.
But i was deeply empty inside, i craved bliss. I wanted higher states of
consiousness and i wanted them now. But i was not getting them here. So i
left the kundalini-list. However i had it convinced in my mind that i was
different, because my kundalini was awakened. I thought that the normal
spiritual path my peers went through was totally different, that i could not
experience devotion, etc. For the next months that followed i struggled here
and there with different things, and a highly advanced yogi who belongs to
SRF helped me. He helped me rid the idea that the kundalini was the only way
i could get to enlightenment, and that we, the soul, are beyoned the
kundalini.
Well eventually i slowly started to find what i was seeking. I
eventually destroyed the thought that i could not have devotion, and started
developing it. I have studied a lot of Ramakrishna. He says again and again,
that Bhakti yoga is the easiest path. Well you will probably say "but he has
an awakened kundalini" Yes he did, but he also said once that God brings his
mind up to the seventh plane, or samadhi. He was so devotional that he
totally relied on God. Keep in mind God could give any one of us, blissful
samadhi at this moment if he wished. Why not rely on God who is inifnite
bliss, to fulfill you? Iam now at the point where i don't care about the
body, whether it has a awakened kundalini, or any of its characteristics, i
only care in pleasing God. And i spend my life doing this. I tell you my
life is a joy. Yes there are troubles and such but i would not trade my life
for anyone elses. Now i know not everyones path is going to be the same as
mine, but i now know Ramakrishna is right, loving God is the easiest path.
It is true whether one has an awakened kundalini or whether one doesn't. All
paths lead to the same goal.
Well thats all i wanted to say, keep in mind i have no desire to
teach others or anything like that, i only said this to share what i have
found. No matter what path you all take, i pray that you are all blessed.
Bye
very sincerely,
Ben F
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