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Recieved: 2003/12/24 23:06
Subject: Re: [K-list] Money
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2003/12/24 23:06, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 02:37 PM 16/12/03, Whimsical Zephyr wrote:
>----- Original Message -----
>From: "Rich" <ulterium AT_NOSPAM barrysworld.com>
>
> >
> > Cheers. Feel better already. Had a strange insightful dream that was about
> > someone who bought some land and had some houses built. They then
>decorated
> > them and filled them with nice energy to entice people to look and buy.
>The
> > colour of the room was orange not blue (like everyone else has)... This
>was
> > a strange message in the dream. I have no idea what it means?
"If you build it, they will come."
I have been recently dealing with a funny conflux in my work. My
business partner in Fire Serpent Tantra decided to go out of business, with
a week's notice... not a surprise to my intuition, but giving me a sudden,
steep learning curve about realmedia hosting to pick up the slack.
Along with spending a lot of time with google, I sent a request for a
hosting provider recommendation to alt.www.webmasters. One person was kind
enough to respond to my query with some useful information... and in the
end I decided to go with his company... and it has been excellent.
Even so, I did not listen to the obvious solution pointed out to me,
right away, instead I wasted some energy with additional shopping and
research. I looked around for a better price, did websearches on the
domains looking for comments, and found out the other two providers I had
been considering were notorious spammers, ... Resolving doubts... those,
and others.
FST has had to be moved, for one reason or another, five times since I
started creating it. None of my other sites have had such problems with
rootlessness. Five times:
one when the provider went down after the dot-com crash. Once to abandon
the next provider when I lost patience with their service.
Once when the place where it was hosted next.,got 9/11 virus, and the
provider found it impossible to fix my folder. Once when the host it is
with now, decided to toss the server it was on and move everyone to
another... and now, moving the media files... "Life is not meant to be a
struggle".. so I have wondered at the cause of this. Looking within myself,
for why.
The moves not counted, are my biz partner moving his server four
times... perhaps it was infected with his rootlessness. It seems to have
found a good stable home, now.
The provider Goddess pointed me to, offered me a better price for a
custom order than I'd seen anywhere, and has been very supportive in
getting everything working again.
I know Goddess provides, and She did... but I still needed my little
bit of drama and struggle, and created it. Releasing some issues I'd had,
with the partner by fussing and worrying about selecting a new
service. Now that everything seems to be working, and I can sit back and
relax, I see my partner going out of business as a huge gift. There was a
lot of work in the transition, but it was educational. I am not surprised
at his going out of business, I saw it coming years ago, despite his
denials... but it happened at a time when I was ready to deal with it.
Expenses have gone down, and the new payment system shows four new
registrations since it changed over, last week, which might be a new
record... it has all turned up roses.
I have also observed a shift in my attitude towards the course, with it
becoming fully mine, now that my partner has surrendered his share of the
copyrights, responsibility, income, and influence. It is like I can now
take full ownership in order to surrender it more fully.
Got motivated to give it a polish, clean up the website while I was
updating it to reflect the ownership changes. I discovered many pages had
never been spell checked... and was able to finally get through them all...
I like my new ADD medication!! Cleaning up a lot of stuff I simply did not
have patience to deal with before.
There seems to be a phase many Kundalites go through, around issues of
money, scarcity, self esteem and life energy. Some do the wandering monk
thing, others choose self employment, or have some financial disaster
strike... but whatever the form, it involves destruction of the stable,
predictable forms of income in order to have the experience of being the
"lilies of the field"... provided for, by Divine Grace and providence. For
me, it was being a Pro-Dom. Many times, I added up my bills and said
"Goddess this is my need, and I know thou shalt provide... thank you very
much!"... and my business line would start ringing... the money to pay the
bills would arrive in days, if not hours.
There is a thing about scarcity consciousness... getting past it cannot
be taught, (really, it cannot...) but it can be learned. There are many
excellent books about spirituality and abundance... Stuart Wilde wrote some
good ones, and Barbara Sher.. plus the classics, like "Think and Grow
Rich." New ones like "Rich Dad Poor Dad."
They mostly say the same things, but it is not enough to read them, you
have to do the exercises and thought experiments, walk the talk enough to
learn, experientially. Live the meaning, take the leaps of faith enough to
have them validated, for faith to become Knowing. Only then, the
information will become a part of you.
I think there is a real practical sense in how some Buddhist countries
require all young men to serve as a monk for a few years. Every morning the
young monks go out with their begging bowl, and return to share what they
have been given, with their brethren. They get real, practical experience
observing how their state of mind, affects how Divine Providence fills
their bowl... or not.
Afterwards, they graduate, go on to become businessmen or
householders, and they will be more successful, better able to feed their
children, though having learned that which cannot be taught.
>Basically, my dream is telling me that if I value myself more, and love
>myself unconditionally, it will lead to greater abundance in my life. It
>tells me that God/dess values me highly, and can create a 'small fortune'
>for me, ie. great abundance. It tells me that the little things I do to love
>myself build up with interest to yield a rich harvest.
Yes, that is lovely. It is truth. Money is symbolic of life energy,
which is love. Issues of money usually are an external manifestation of
inner issues of deserving, self esteem, self love. One reflects the other.
A few weeks ago, in chat, we were talking about the cosmic rules of
abundance... you could not understand them fully (cannot be taught) but you
could feel the resonance of truth, which motivated you to try some thought
experiments, make a shift of consciousness and thinking, take some leaps of
faith, which in turn are giving you the results that validate the truths,
and make the change from faith, to knowledge. Knowing, experientially, the
mechanisms and laws of Divine providence, and flowing with that.
Rich, you have been going through a few years struggle and growing,
around issues of giving your power away, becoming what others want you to
be instead of being true to Goddess within yourself... and issues with the
feeling of victimhood that result from that pattern.
Now you have become sovereign in yourself, enough to be dealing with
the next layers... of choosing your work and learning how you will be
totally supported, when you place your fate in Goddess hands and practice
active surrender.... following the will of your own Spirit. You could not
know yourself enough, before, to do that... too many other voices crowding
you.
Money is symbolic of life energy... and you can see how the money issues
mirror the energy issues you went through, before. This is another layer of
the same issues... coming up now, because you are in a place to handle it.
Perfection.
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