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Recieved: 2003/08/22 22:49
Subject: Re: [K-list] Sharing (was Meditation)
From: Julie D

Hi Holly,

I'm sorry it's taken me so long to respond to you. My son has injured his
hand and I have been hanging at the hospital a lot. He had surgery
yesterday
and the decisions have been made. I have thought about your post during my
waiting periods.
>
> I don't think it is secrecy that cooks the ego, but frustration! The wish
to
> be known, the wish to be understood, the wish to be discovered are all
> largely ego wishes, I think.

I wonder if they are ego wishes. Sometimes I think it is what life is all
about. A great game of hide and seek we are playing with ourself in order
to be known, understood and discovered, all over again.

  It is my ego that compels me to answer the challenge
> of the above statement. In feeling misunderstood, there is a little Ping!
in
> my self-regard. How I deal with this little Ping! will either reify my
ego or
> let it dissolve a teeny bit [the jury is still out on this one :)].
> Disappointment is a teacher par excellence.

I agree about disappointment. I'm very sorry that I misunderstood you.
While the internet is a wonderful technology that allows people with similar
interests and experience to come together a lot is left out in our
communications. I would much rather be sitting opposite you, finding a
response in your eyes and your smile, hearing the subtleties of the tone of
your voice as you expressed your feelings. Then I would know that this was
a shared experience and we understood each other and that in some small
measure the entire texture of our consciousness would have been transformed
by the encounter.

While I feel priveledged to live in a time with this extraordinary
communication device, I often miss the finer subtleties of person to person
contact that aren't present in these black symbols on a white background.
Sometimes I sit here in full emotional response to what has been written but
the full exchange of energy doesn't occur. I have been touched but the
author doesn't know he has touched me. Other times, I reach out to touch
and don't know whether I have connected or not. It is more difficult to
communicate here. I listen but miss sometimes.

Thank you for sharing and the ping.
Love,
Julie.
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