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Recieved: 2003/07/07 10:22
Subject: [K-list] Past life Karma
From: Charles
On 2003/07/07 10:22, Charles posted thus to the K-list:
Ive been having a real testing time of it this last couple of weeks. I
recently started a new relationship with lovely girl and for some reason it
just doesnt feel right and thats been bugging the hell out of me. I met my
girlfriend at the Mind Body Spirit show where I was giving CST treatments a
few weeks ago. She walked past and immediately I felt something shift inside
me and knew she would be back for a treatment. 2 mins later she was lying on
my table. I was shaking as I treated her and could feel she was feeling the
same thing. Later that night I emailed her and within a week we were involved
in a very intense and passionate relationship.
However, a couple of weeks ago I started to get the jitters when I saw her,
or even thought of seeing her and I wasnt sure why. My gut feelings have
always guided me and this was a strong gut feeling that told me something was
wrong. So last Sunday night I ventured over to see her and driving there I
started to feel really nautious. By the time I got to her place I was shaking
from deep inside and trying very hard to hold it together. She was all perky
but within minutes of opening the door and welcoming me in I had started
crying and didnt know why but felt a huge release. I suddenly felt quite
clear and calm but then I could sense her start to shake and shiver and then
her tears came. It was all quite strange but it felt very healing. I left an
hour later but to cut a long story short she had to take the rest of last
week off work because she was going through a spontaneous K awakening. All
the classic symptoms. On thursday morning she woke up and the worst was o
ver, she said she felt amazing. Like she had come through it and felt
cleansed. She had never heard of K before and it as only when I told her to
do a search on the internet for "El Collie" that she discovered what had been
going on for her.
We arranged to meet the weekend just gone and when she came over on friday, I
had that same feeling that there was something quite wrong about us being
together and I could feel this energetic "stuff" getting in the way between
us. So I told her that I didnt think it could work out and that I was having
all these strange negative feelings. She was really upset because she has got
really attached to me me and to be honest I felt the same way to start with
but something shifted in me and I dont feel the same way any more although I
had no idea what had changed. I said that I thought we should cool it but we
still spent the weekend together and she left yesterday morning with me
slipping back into this negative unsure state. Im driving myself mad with it
so God only knows how annoying I must be for her. I have tried so hard to
pull myself together and to shake the feeling but my gut wont leave me alone.
She is a very special woman and has all the qualities I am normally attraced
to but for some unknown reason it isnt working for me.
She did tell me that during her week off work whilst she was having this K
experience she got a very clear vision of me and her in a past life. I was
her 12 year old son and murdered her by stabbing her repeatedly in the heart.
Once she had this vision she said that the instant and intense bond that we
had initially exerienced now made sense to her. The strange thing is that we
both have fairly unusual eyes and when we looked in the mirror next to each
other, we both have identical eyes. Same size, same shape, same colouring.
Exactly. And the only place I feel comfortably connected to her is when we
stop talking and just look into each others eyes.
So Im stuck really. I feel like I dont want to mess her around but I feel I
shouldnt carry on seeing her if I dont feel the same way about her as she
does about me. Its all just been very strange though - The way I met her, the
intensity, the highs and lows, the K stuff and now me feeling detactched.
Then I dont know what to make of this past life suggestion and what
significance that has and what attention I should pay to that....... if any.
Thanks for listening.
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