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Recieved: 2003/06/01 00:48
Subject: [K-list] Greetings Everyone
From: Ben Frocklage
On 2003/06/01 00:48, Ben Frocklage posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Everyone,
Hello there my name is Ben Frocklage. I have recently signed up to
the kundalini mailing list. In fact i used to post and talk here with you
guys many months ago under my old email. I unsubscribed for different
reasons.
Here is a basic overview of my past. I belong to the
Self-Realization fellowship church, and have been attending there my whole
life. About a year and a half ago while i was at a meditation at my church,
i had a deep experience while meditating. Iam already positive it was the
kundalini waking up, but i will describe to you how i experienced it. While
i was looking at the point between the eyebrows, and doing a pranayama
concentration technique of meditation called hong sau, all of a sudden i
felt a tremendous sensation. My heart started to beat very fast and it felt
like lightning gripped my brain, not painfully or anything but it felt
tingly. Simultaneously i saw a great light at the point between the
eyebrows, this light was gentle yet it was more intense than the sun at the
same time, it was also very beautiful. After the meditation was over and as
i was walking out of the temple, i was very detached, everything seemed like
a dream to me.
A few days after this experience i landed in a hospital as i was
in psychosis. This lasted for a month or so, and during this time i had most
wonderous experiences and also some very horrendous ones also. I have
experienced many, many things but it would take a long time to describe all
of them so for now i will keep it simple. About a few months later my
kundalini went back to sleep again and it seemed like i was back to
"normal". However i was in my church meditating again and i had a similar
experience where my kundalini woke up again. All in all it has done this
many times, where i lost count of how many times i have had experiences
where it has waken up, then gone back to sleep.
Now my kundalini is very much balenced, and i live a wonderful
life these days. Iam happy where iam at now spiritually. And i have learned
a lot and grown in these past two years. Even though at times i was going
through such horrendous experiences that i thought death would be the only
end to my torment, and even almost killed myself, i now feel that it was all
very much worthwhile. I would do it all over again if i had to.
At any rate i would really like to tell all of you, my fellow
friends who share the same karmic fate of having a unbalenced kundalini,
that there is indeed light at the end of the tunnel. There is very much hope
for all of us, even though at times it looks like there is no hope left in
sight. Believe me i know how hopeless it seems while being in the throes of
a unbalenced kundalini. But i firmly believe that God is aware of our
conditions, and our struggles. I firmly believe that God has compassion for
all of us, and will in the end reward us for our heroic deeds in endruring
the ill effects of the kundalini. But i have no intention of forcing my
beliefs on to any of you, if you do not believe in God but rather believe in
some other cosmic force or deity thats fine. I came on this list to try to
shed some light on this matter, and try to encourage and help you guys with
the kundalini experience i have.
I very much look forward to talking with you people via email, and
iam honored that you let me join the k-list. Perhaps i will even have the
privilage of making a few friends here as well. :)
Thank you very much everyone, and i apologize for writing such a long
letter, but its my first one and i had to explain myself.
In Divine Friendship,
Ben Frocklage
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