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Recieved: 2003/04/09 01:53
Subject: [K-list] Fusion bomb energy....
From: SAC
On 2003/04/09 01:53, SAC posted thus to the K-list:
What you call fusion bomb energy or anger or hatred is only energy,
Aaron.
It all depends on your perspective on how you experience me. Some people
feel the exact same energy and go off into episodes of bliss.
That is why before I share energy with people first I always ask their
permission.
Yes, I was pissed off at first but it wasn't anger you felt over the
next couple of days. I was holding your feet to the fire and making you
accountable for what you said. How much you squirmed and squealed told
me that things were getting pretty hot for you. What you felt was my
focused and undivided attention on you. Fortunately, or unfortunately
depending on how you view it, that attention is intensified by
kundalini. If your heart was more open and vulnerable and your ego less
prominent this energy would have felt more like bliss than destruction.
That is what Kali energy is. Be surrendered to the Divine Feminine and
it is bliss. Be resistant and it burns like the fires of hell. It
consumes the ego. What results is " then
> I lost my nerve and started acting up>" to protect the ego.
It is fortunate that you are not your ego. :) I don't think you see that
yet but you are not. What is feeling disturbed here is the ego. Be
fascinated with that process and watch it unfold. Become the watcher of
your life, not enmeshed in it.
The fact that you can't even remember what caused the incident is
instructive. In shows how casually you made remarks about something that
is sensitive to a lot of women. A casual attitude shows lack of respect
and a lack of insightful thinking. It is an energy thing, not just a
word exchange. How else does this attitude of casualness manifest in
your life and with what kind of results?
Everyone is entitled to an opinion. We all have at least one. Being
kundalini awakened, though, rachets up the intensity of the
opinion...how it is felt and how it is experienced. If opinions are
thrown around be prepared to back them up with thoughtful
substance...there may be someone like me around who takes the bait and
won't let go until some kind of resolution is reached...or the baiter
get eaten. :)
I know this whole process did not feel kind to you in any way. I have
had my feet held to the fire for my opinions more than once and it still
happens. I still scream and squirm until I make my own personal
discovery, an epiphany of understanding. It is a process of inner
alchemy.
One can be victimized by life and their experiences or they can
transcend and transform themselves by them. Our lives are our crucible.
The people we interact with the fire that begins the process to burn
away impurities.
Yeah, I could have not come down from the porch and played this game
with you. But I still have things to learn about myself also.
And it takes big balls to not pick up your toys and run away from this
list when you are being burnt in the flames...as many people have...and
to begin to look inward at why this happened and share about it. That is
a good thing. :)
One day when you know and experience your own perfection you will not
feel this pain anymore.
Namaste,
Susan
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