To: K-list
Recieved: 2003/04/09 00:43
Subject: Re: [K-list] why?
From: hbrost
On 2003/04/09 00:43, hbrost posted thus to the K-list:
I can barely even remember my original post, I only know
it offended you (whether you admit that or not) and you exploded at me,
then
I lost my nerve and started acting up
Dear Aaron,
You remind me of a past lover, ten years younger than I, very beautiful in
physical body, and very narcissistic. Are you finding yourself this way?
When I read Mystress' evaluation of your statements equating to emotional
abuse, it really hit me hard that you actually may be hurting -- and you
can't find a way out.
_________________
I'm 23 years old. I never meant to "hide" from people who I was. I just
didn't feel the need to announce, "Hey everyone! It's me, Aaron" afterall,
I've never felt much connection with anyone on this list, except for a
scarce
few. I did tell Hillary right away who I was when I re-signed up, and that
was good enough for me. Obviously not enough for you. None of your business
really.
_________________
Aaron, I never did want to engage in conversation with you, ...under the
name Aaron! And then I lashed out at you (understandably so) under a
different name, where previously I would not have bothered. But it IS our
business, really. Names on e-mail lists develop "personalities" and
expectations, and "comfortableness" within the group. However, it was my
feeling then, and my feeling now, that abusiveness exists in your present
consciousness. Have you ever investigated narcissism? ...Not pleasant.
There's hardly anything to be done about it, except if one REALLY, REALLY
wants to...and I'm not saying you are. It's the "feeling" and your various
e-mails and then Mystress' post that points this out to me.
___________________
> I repeat...
>
> Grow up.
>
> Be a man.
>
thanks, I'm trying my best. I knew this was all for nothing.
_____________________
This is exactly what my previous lover would say. And then everyone sighs,
'ahhhhhhhhhhhh.' It's your torture chamber, Aaron. You actually didn't
know; it was a game! Playing with other's (women's) emotions is
challenging! A daredevil escapade. And as long as you apologize, humble
yourself, <denounce> yourself...everyone goes back to normal. Until your
next attack.
Like I said, you can get help, but most likely you don't believe you need
help. And then Kundalini on top of it all...don't even want to think of
your pain. I do feel for you. BTW, narcissism builds upon itself until
about the age of 35. Even "died in the wool" narcissists like Dr. Vankin
( I think that's his name) claims no escape.
Hety
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