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Recieved: 2003/03/02 04:41
Subject: Re: [K-list] Partners
From: jlb
On 2003/03/02 04:41, jlb posted thus to the K-list:
>>I wonder if we are drawn to not have a relationship (in the normal human
sense)... I don't like the prospect... I enjoy companionship, but it seems
like to get close to someone also means wading through their issues until
they are close enough to meet you with the same level of intimacy.
>>Many thanks for opening the door to talk about this.
Me too. This is hard subject for me too.. it dredges up a horrendous amount
of pain. I lost a relationship over some of this kundalini intensity. I didn't know
that is what it was then.. but I was dabbling with tantric stuff. Just when it
seemed like it had reached the point where it would finally become "comfortable"
it exploded out of control and in spite of everything... became a "time of loss"
But it seemed like everyone around me, not just me, were being sucked into
a kind of vortex of loneliness. Like everyone was on a spiritual path, and
no one had an intimate relationship. That was eight years ago now. And at
that point I could see then it was going to be "a long while yet".. (for
socieo-economic reasons etc ) long-ranging was very difficult for me then.
I found this list in an internet search on celibacy. Involuntary celibacy
actually, but finding the "right" soulmate etc.. seems formidable even yet.
So.. I was looking for answers, ways to deal with it.. to embrace it even,
as a path, at least for now.
Its funny, but I feel extremely more qualified now to share, because I have
more inner peace, I guess, but at the same time it seems like its growing
more and more distant as an actually reality.
Who was it, Sabrina, or Susan ? Who made the comment about the more
intimate we become with the Beloved Goddess, the less need we have for
other intimacy.
Anyway.. that Beloved Goddess idea from the Mystress website etc,
helped me. At least made the resolve easier. All I want is that bliss..
peace, quiet comfort.. Samadhi ? It's just that intimacy was the only
place I could ever find it before.
~~jlb~~
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