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Recieved: 2003/02/09 04:07
Subject: RE: [k-list] claustrophobia
From: Rich
On 2003/02/09 04:07, Rich posted thus to the K-list:
Hi Felix,
I have found myself choosing a more isolated and solitary life as the years
have rolled over. I suspect for me this is some kind of avoidance behavior,
feeling that I can be quite content doing very little and being choosy about
where my time and focus is spent.
Being amongst groups of others and having to succumb to their wills and
ego's for the sake of being rejected or judged can sometimes be an
unpleasant experience. As David would no doubt tell me it's my resistance to
follow others. I think we people have chosen our path, maybe too much so
that we are no longer willing to subject ourselves to others paths (wills)
so readily.
I guess there is middle ground here too of surrendering to another's will.
Actually this does make me think that when we do this there will is not so
great. This makes sense as resistance to another's will is actually feeding
it and amplifying it with one's own energy. Interesting dynamics.
I remember a time recently when I was with a customer and had a strong sense
he was going to request for something urgent which was going to take about 3
hours of my time. I really didn't want to do this as had a filled day ahead
of me. In the discussion I just surrendered to the idea and he told me not
to worry he would take care of this himself. This was remarkable to me as
this was normally one of our most difficult to please customers and we are
used to running around after him. Difficult to please.
Strangely people can't believe he actually likes me... Normally he just
complains about everyone and everything but lately he's been very pleasant
and polite to me... It difficult for me to know how to behave to someone who
normally complain all the time and then start praising you... LOL. Strange
world.
Rich
PS Felix... Is that your real name? Just curious.. In my younger years there
used to be a bit of a rave act by someone called felix. I remember reading
about him and he was quite a reclusive person - I don't think it's you?!
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