To: K-list
Recieved: 2003/02/08 05:20
Subject: Re: [k-list] Fun, Fun, Fun????
From: hbrost
On 2003/02/08 05:20, hbrost posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Danalla,
I'm so sorry I haven't written until now, but this is really the first time I'm not on the go, trying to hit the sack or run out the door. Seems to me you're describing my life previous to a K awakening! Or whatever you want to call it. For once I feel qualified to give advice, your experience is so close to what mine was....Perhaps my giving you advice in retrospect NOW just may help me now and us both, in the future. ;-) It's all relative anyway...
Greetings,
Before you continue reading this I do want to give you
a warning. If you pick up things very well from
messages you may not want to read this as I am doing a
bit of venting.
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Hety: Yep. Pretty powerful feelings. Why I saved your e-mail to answer!
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Wondering when abundance is coming. Been struggling
very hard to keep my business going. Up till now I
have been making bills on time but now am falling
behind.
Hety: Abundance is having $2.00 more than the drunk lying in the street. You then are more abundant and if you're willing to help, it comes back. Abundance may include an unlimited view of the sunrise, the song of birds at the feeder, the splendor of an incredible sunset...along with a glass of chardonnay and a bit of cheese. Sharing a moment with a beloved pet. That's abundance to me. As you acknowledge abundance, I guarantee it will grow!
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Then something else not so great and wonderful
happened. My car was just vandalized bad. Whoever did
it knew it was my car because of some of the things
they wrote on it. But it was also someone that knows
cars. They broke the lock on the passenger side and
stole my registration sticker and went through my
glove compartment. They also flattened all 4 tires
and bent my antenae. Thought that was it till I tried
starting it. They removed a lot of parts from my
engine. Have no clue how much repairs will cost. My
insurance will not pay for vandalism. It is an older
car so I'm possibly gonna chalk it up as a complete
loss.
Hety: So then do. When I was very young I had a car in the same condition. Boys dropped a sewer cover on top and sledge-hammered the back window...don't know why, they just did. I left the car to the City of Philadelphia. Haven't thought about it much, but I suppose I lost some money. It was too repulsive to think about, so I didn't.
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The police kept asking me if I ever had problems with
people at the store. I never had to throw anyone out
or ask anyone to leave. I only moved into this area
less than 2 years ago so I haven't even had time to
make very many friends let alone make some enemies.
I find that I'm very filled with fear now.
Hety: Yes. And this very fear is what is manifesting all of your problems. Again, yes. It's so difficult to deal with this stuff and more difficult to understand the origin and projection of the fear. Because you're in it. Get OUT of it. Easy to say, you say! ;-)
My thought is that Kundalini is the origin of fear. Kundalini tingles every nerve end and maneuvers and manipulates "normalcy" to the point of misunderstanding UNLESS you are aware of what's really happening. This, I believe, is what happened to me. Fear built up, built up...was so projected that, until the dam burst, I was in constant fear-turmoil. I attracted fear. I projected fear. I was the epitomy of fear.
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I jump at
every little sound. Makes it hard when you have a
business and you work by yourself and you have
strangers coming in all day long. My parents told me
to watch my back... but from who. That's what scares
me the most. Having no clue who did this or why.
Wondering if they are going to come after the store or
me next.
Hety: They will if you attract them. They won't if you don't. Your parents obviously programmed the fear; my parents programmed the fear.
OK, here's the answer: You cannot die. Repeat: You, the essence of Who You Are, cannot die. No matter what happens! And believe me, Danalla, you the body will die, you the human body, the ego, yes, you will die. But You (the I AM) live eternally! This is what Kundalini will teach you, reassure you, re-condition you -- to believe. You will KNOW you cannot die. So therefore...ta da! No fear! ;-)
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My one friend who has lived here almost 10 years told
me it's just like the people in this area to do that.
If you are enlightened in any way they want to bring
you back down to the level they are at.
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Hety: Yes. That's any one, any where. I live in Medanales, New Mexico. This is a male dominated, drug, alcohol and abuse related culture. Nasty vibes. However, there ARE people who realize what it means to succeed. Don't buy into others' ways. Create your own ways, vision and life. Delete the fear. And I'll tell you how to do it...smile at everyone. Simple. When you smile, they smile back. Open your heart chakra. Throw love into the air, turn the tide. Believe me, it works.
Also, find others like yourself and meet once a week. Create a wonderful group setting of support and companionship, the basis of which is Love for the community. The love grows, believe me.
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I slept very little last night. I woke up several
times crying from nightmares that people were after
me. Everytime the furnace turned on or the
refrigerator started I woke up. Every time a car
passed by outstide I jumped. I'm working on releasing
this fear. I know whatever Goddess has planned for me
will happen.
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Hety: Well, God/dess may give you a shock in the meanwhile! Ask God/dess for what is in your heart. Demand it! You may be surprised. But as long as you keep fear as your mainstay, stay it will. No fear. No fear. Equivalent to hate it will bring you down to its level and...level you. Think love. Go to sleep with love. Bless your community and embrace Who They Are.
I believe, Danalla, you'll find a difference. Please don't live another second in fear; it's your decision.
Much love,
Hety
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