To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/11/11 08:01
Subject: [K-list] Emotionalism
From: mundaneyogi
On 2002/11/11 08:01, mundaneyogi posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Brothers and Sisters in K.,
Inspired by the recent threads, as well as some personal
revelations, I'd like to solicit some feedback on the subject of
emotionalism. Although I find the techniques of Kriya Yoga proper
to be very effective and natural for me, the peripheral Bhakti
(devotional) aspects have become a turn-off. This groveling at the
blue lotus feet of the gurus seems like so much sappy
sentimentality. I just can't get into it anymore.
Perhaps Kundalini has made some internal changes over the past
decades, because I don't get the highs and lows I used to. Even
when emotions appear, I experience them with a certain detachment,
as if I were watching a movie. I feel like I exist continuously in
this calm central place. Even during sleep there's this little
glimmer of awareness; it's as if waking consciousness were right
around the corner.
Some of the recent threads seem to reflect so much emotionalism –
anger, defensiveness, etc., all of which is then typically projected
onto someone else. While reading them I felt compassion, but as
they used to say in the 60's, "I just can't relate".
Although I was tempted to reply a couple of times,
I thought . o O (no, this isn't my karma. I'm not sticking
my hand in that can of bees).
A few self-help systems I've seen preach the doctrine of
returning to the inner child. While child-like innocence is a
beautiful thing, temper tantrums and thoughtless childish behavior
is usually hurtful, to oneself and to others. No, these novel New
Age systems aren't for me. I doubt their efficacy and doubt the
motives of their founders.
I still feel emotion; don't get me wrong. Many things affect me,
like the bliss in meditation or that profoundly beautiful post about
the dream with the Orcas. However, I gag on saccharine
sentimentality and regard angry people with a kind of surreal
amusement.
I've arrived at an interesting place, spiritually, a kind of Zen
– Yoga synthesis. I lean toward the philosophy of Buddhism, but
prefer yoga practice to zazen. Maybe Tantric Buddhism will work for
me, but in the interim, I guess I'll just follow this odd
synthetic system.
Comments are welcome.
Peace and Love,
Ken
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/kindex.htm
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