To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/11/07 03:51
Subject: [K-list] Re: Who To serve...
From: David Bozzi
On 2002/11/07 03:51, David Bozzi posted thus to the K-list:
--- In Kundalini-GatewayATnospamy..., "Rich" <rich4444ATnospamh...> wrote:
>
> Well after getting tangled up with a girl…
Who was tying who up?
> I was getting more disappointed than it was worth my while…
What's your while worth?
Is it really anybodys?
> so have no expectation, of course…
Of course. ;)
So why the disappointment?
Why not at least be honest with yourself.
> Why should something wonderful come into my life to then have to
> loose it again after more than 2 months of waiting.
Was it the expectationless kind of waiting?
(you know, the kind without an object)
> What is the learning to be had. Lead us not into temptation?
I'm tempted to go into this energy of temptation
right now. It seems to be attached to something,
or someone or someOne...
> Why are we shown beauty to be led into
> addiction but then not able to maintain it.
It's not like you caused it
why would you think
you could maintain it?
> Nothing is permanent… Hmmm..
What is Nothing?
> So I gave her up… Yes! I did! I surrendered everything back to
> Goddess.
> Got back in my self. Felt very happy and didn't care for anything….
Nothing is permanent.
> So I go about my business… Following the only voice worth listening
> to… My inner guide… And decide to take a trip to a nearby market….
> So… I get there… Where do I go… Okay… Follow inner guidance…. Dum de
dum
> de dum… This way.. That way… This way… Well where does Goddess take
me…
> Straight into the Girl I just finished with and surrendered…
Could have been a test...
> Call it coincidence… This is really strange… So Goddess wants her
back
> with me…. What is it for… To be good to her?
Could have been a test.
> Why I give her up and I get her back again…
You get her?
I think I'm beginning to see the source of the pain here.
> It's as if we were meant to be together…
For how long?
> But why does she hold on to her past so much…
Why do we hold onto anything?
> Why does she not trust me
> more…
Why do we want to quantify something like trust?
> Why does she say she wants to be with me from her heart but
> then
> ask her ex-boyfriend to take care of her when she is ill
Insecure? Attached? Hiding from herself?
> What to do… Is this yet another lesson… To care but not care….
Detachment is not a form of repression.
> Hmmm…
> Goddess can teach hard sometimes
Goddess knows what you really want.
It seems hard because you don't.
> What shall I do… Let things happen…
How does one do that?
Seems if you're doing it you're not doing it.
> And now she wants to have a tattoo done from a monk because she
thinks
> it's cool…
Ok. Some things are permanent.
> Why do I get her ego all the time… Why can't she be god in
> herself… Because she doesn't know this yet..
Oh boy. Aren't we really off the track here.
Do you know why?
> Comments welcome…
...lust is blind
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