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Recieved: 2002/09/19 23:24
Subject: RE: [K-list] I killed my ego... now what ??
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2002/09/19 23:24, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
Your symptoms sound familiar.. I used to get it, like ice-lightning
running through my bones and I would be switching back between hot and cold
every 30 seconds. Yes, it does pass. Eventually you run out of karma, and
then it may only come occasionally, like when you are doing intense magic
or healing work.
When you feel like this, put on some music that you love, loud, and
dance like nobody's watching, dance the energy out till the thunderstorm
comes and you are tired. Keep your crown chakra open or you might get a
headache.
Then get in a hot bath with a tall drink of water, or some gatorade or
vegetable broth. Mint or chamomile tea might be a good choice, but
something with minerals, especially calcium and potassium. Bless the water
to make it more effective. Water is electrically conductive. You are mostly
water. Stay well hydrated to avoid burn out hangovers. The water will also
flush the physical component of the karma out of you... the lactic acid
that was released from the muscles releasing their body armouring. .
Soak, in epsom salts if you have them. Massage yourself and make the
washing an intention of a ritual cleansing. Purifying the temple. Rinse off
the salt water, then go to bed. Have a hot water bottle placed wherever it
still hurts. Take an ibuprofin if you want, but avoid reading or TV if you
can. Stay focused inward. After the catharsis and the relaxation, the noise
to signal ration really improves. Don't do a formal mediation, just be
grounded and let your mind float and observe how every thought has a
reaction in the body. Be the observer. You may get insights, or be shown
some things to surrender.
Sometimes I found it useful to go to sleep while imagining myself
floating like a fetus inside the fiery crystal at the center of the Earth..
being loved and letting the Mother heal me. Ask for whatever karma is left
to be released or resolved in sleep... you may have insights when you wake
the next morning. If you do this, I think the fever portion of the trip
will disappear or pass more quickly.
Kind of like, do you prefer band-aids to be removed quick or slow? It
sounds like you have responsibilities that make it easier to have it short
and intense rather than lingering dysfunctional. Easier to have hubby take
care of the kids for a night, than be sleepwalking in fever for days.
Every so often, Goddess takes a jackhammer to what was not coming out
with a feather. Usually it comes after you have had some practice
surrendering. Go with it, surrender to it and embrace the overload. Stretch
the limits of how much energy you can handle. Apply gratitude. Know that
you can always ask for mercy, but trust Goddess won't give you more than
you can handle. Resisting just makes it hurt more. I would not suggest this for someone less stable than you, but I know
you can surrender to the intensity and expand the limits of how much energy
your body can handle, blow the stuff out of your system without losing balance.
I used to cultivate energy overload, for the extra karma it would poke
up and burn off, and the bliss of it burning. Several of us, in the early
days of the K-sex list were conducting all out Shaktipat experiments on
each other. Reaching for intensity. Almost competitive, seeing who could
carry the biggest charge, or deliver it. There were a lot of flame wars,
with all the karma being stirred up and delivered back flaming, but it was
a fire path. We all grew tremendously from it.
Seeking overload deliberately can be resistance, but surrendering when
Goddess provides can be rocket fuel. Dance through the fire.
Blessings...
At 09:38 AM 19/09/02, Kat wrote:
>Every so often, that energy goes hay wire. I feel it in my nerves; my hands,
>feet, legs, arms, head ,neck and body twitch. My skin is electrified. I feel
>like my body is short circuiting.
>
>I am compelled to get up and move around to alliviate some of that energy,
>it feels like I will over load if I don't. Over load past my tolerance
>because really I am already over loaded.
>...
>So Hillary, are you saying that this will eventually pass? even though it
>has been going on for a really long time? Are you saying that all this time
>has been the beginning?
>
>Please and thanks
>I appreciate you
>kat
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