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Recieved: 2002/09/18 08:13
Subject: [K-list] kundlini triggers poll
From: Traveler
On 2002/09/18 08:13, Traveler posted thus to the K-list:
Hi everyone,
1. Did you have a spontaneous awakening, or was it "planned?"
I was a money manager on Wall. St. (well the Pacific Coast version) at the
time. I had no idea what was happening. In fact when it happened I was
really sick and went to Esalen and found the book by Lee Sanella, read it,
and then threw it away, thinking, this is a nice theory, and it fits me
perfectly, but right now I new help, not some #ATnospam$% spiritual theory! I want
pills, or at least a diagnosis, I'm dying... or maybe I had already had my
NDE, and I might die again. I laugh about this now but at the time the best
Senalla could was say that some people had made some connection (maybe
false?) to the Icelandic virus. I began thinking I must have contacted the
Icelandic virus or some other horribly thing.
It took me three years to find out, really. A friend of ours came over and
heard the story of my "teriible virus" and NDE and convinced me it was a
kundalini awakening. He was studying how to arouse one in himself at the
time. I still remember blinking, and saying, (nose all scruched up), "You
mean you want what I had? What I had was good?" So I went out and bought
some books and sure enough, to the letter, there I was. Years later I found
the Sannella book, a little orange thing originally. I thought, where did
this come from? And then I remembered and laughed again.2. What do you think triggered
I met at Harbin a diciple of Muktananda whom and invited him to take a
walk...
we climbed Mount Harbin. He looked at me (at my request) in the eyes and a
third eye popped out of his head. This happened twice. I was stunned and
shocked beyond words. This happened about a year and a third before my
awakening. I had no reference for this experience. But he gave me the name
of the Muktananda Ashram in Oakland and I got on their mailing list which
followed me
for 15 years, until I was ready to confront my lineage. (I am thankful for
this, since I never would have remembered the name a the time.)
It took me 3 years to figure out the k part, and for quite a while, it was
just a theory that
the man with three eyes had awakened me, as opposed to some other source.
I stayed away from the Ashram even though I wound up living in Oakland for
6 years (years 10-16 of my new life). I would often drive by there and
speed up so as not to catch
anything else from them I didn't want. And it was still a theory, how it
happened and all. One day, on my 15th k birthday I decided to meet these
folks whim I suspected were my lineage. Actually Muktananda called me in,
he has ways of communicating. I
was feeling a need to have a past, some grounding. I had been born again
and had no connection to anything earlier than my 15 years and I needed
something.
So I went. Upon getting their special mantra, his face appeared to me loud
and bright in my third eye. I have never seen anything so clearly in my
life, like a hologram. He was looking at me with this haunting, steady,
look. Then I knew for sure where my k came from. After that I had a blue
pearl sun that exploded into bliss in front of my eyes- a mini-version of
the first time. That was his way of
saying hello and welcome back.
The energy was so intense though that I could not stay around there without
getting more k activity than I wanted. I have had to love him from afar. In
time I am
connecting more with him. We'll see what happens next.
b. Was a strong emotion involved? Love? Fear? Pain? Despair? and if so was
prayer involved?
It lasted for many months. Six weeks from the beginning to the crown, where
I had the NDE, into the light, born again. But how frightening,
terrible....painful, too. I knew I was going to die. I did, I saw my whole
life pass before my eyes, and it was a horrifying vision.
Then I went into the light. The light was pure unconditional love. When I
came back I was a different person. A walk-in. I've checked this out too
over time before coming to this firm conclusion.
Anyway, the k ran strong for many months before
it stopped for even five minutes. I didn't know what was happening and
always wondered if I would die again and stay dead. But by then, I had
sworn to myself, to live life fully in every moment, so if I did go, I
could go in peace.
c. Do you think heredity is implicated?
No.
d. Did you have an NDE (Near Death experience)?
Yes.
I'm guessing that it is perhaps a combination of factors that triggers K
and it would be interesting to see which ones predominate!
In my case, one shaktipat seems to have done the job.
-------y.lEAA/MVfIAA/AtTslB/TM
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/kindex.htm
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