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Recieved: 2002/09/14 09:34
Subject: 3rd chakra power games. was: [K-list] Re: Descent of Divine Shakti Kristy's IMO's
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2002/09/14 09:34, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 05:23 PM 11/09/02, Stormymouse :P wrote:
>Kristy wrote:
>
>Hello! These are my IMO's but I cant let this go by w/out
>responding. This really brings something up that I have had on my mind
>lately. Ever since Mystress opened my my eyes to what Goddess one of my
>higher sources can do for me. I have fully been relying on her and my
>guides to help me and things have changed dramatically. They know me much
>more than any one human could. Even if they are called a Kundalini Master
>isn't that just a term like Enlightened. Who labels these people as
>Enlightened or Masters of something? We humans do it, its a 3rd chakra
>thing.
:) Hiya Kristy:
You got it nailed! :) Hierarchy games, power exchange games are of
the third chakra, and nowhere else.
I do not care for the term "Kundalini Master", because it suggests
mastery of Goddess, ... control of it, and that is an ego illusion. One
does not Master Kundalini, one steps aside and allows it to do its work
through you, as the vessel.
I do accept the title of Shaktipat Master... which at one end of the
spectrum, simply means that one's Kundalini is contagious. In that way, I
have been a Shaktipat Master since around 1985.. even though I did not even
know to call it that, then. I just noticed that sometimes when I taught
grounding to someone, they changed remarkably, in a positive and lasting
way. Probably, I was sparking top-down awakenings... spiritual awakening,
heart chakra openings.
Even so, at this time I consider simply being contagious, to be much
less than Mastery. Almost, irresponsible. Getting K to spark the root
chakra is not so difficult, but granting shaktipat in a way that will lead
to a smooth and full awakening in a fairly short time is the true meaning
of the term. It took me another 12 years to get to a place where I could
do, as I did with you... locate the blockages that were giving you paranoid
attacks and teach you to release them and surrender to the energy, while
enhancing the process with the Shakti I am vessel of. Where two or more are
gathered...
Even so, as Hillary commented, I have a light hand. I do not like
people to become dependent on me. I'd rather they depend on themselves,
trust themselves.
Honestly, been there done that, and to some amazing extremes... as
extreme as they can be played, in a Western world and short of cult
brainwashing. Combining Shaktipat with BDSM slave and Mistress games,
selecting people who really wanted to give me all their power and were up
front about it, taught me so much about power dynamics and how karma
flows. When someone gives me their power, I get their karma too...
responsibility is power, and karma follows responsibility. If they
surrender, the transmutation is blissful, like nothing else... incredible
miracles are possible. But if they resist it slays me.
So, "Goddess has it handled" sends the karma to Goddess within the
seeker, whereas "Mystress has it handled" sent the karma to me.
The less I take responsibility for someone else's healing or growth, the
less karma I take on from them. The more I take responsibility for
someone's process, or seek to control them, the more their karma flows to me.
That is the guru game, turn your life over to the Guru, do as you are
told and in exchange the Guru handles the karma. It has its advantages but
in the long term it is hard on the Guru and disempowering for the seeker.
Surrender to the Guru is an absolute requirement, or you will kill the
Guru... Free Will is Goddess law and trying to bend it has repercussions.
The seekers resistance hurts the Guru. Even the great sage Ramana
Maharishi died of liver disease, and before he died he told his devotees
that it was their karma that did it. Not fair of him to blame them, really.
It was his taking on karma that they were not ready to surrender that does
the damage.
He is not the only one, liver problems are epidemic among Gurus who
practice a hierarchical system. I am on a Kundalini Yoga list, Yogi Bahan
has just had a liver transplant. They were asking for prayers for him, for
many months. How many thousands of devotees in 3HO, and all their karma
flowing to him? Yikes!
To make an odd comparison, it is like what Jesus did... he kept
preaching that the magic of miracles is in all of us, we are all God's
children, he is not the only son of the Father... but as long as he was
doing miracles for people, they saw God in him but not in themselves.
It is a fabulous rush to have someone surrender to me, to take on
their karma and feel the blissful alchemy of it transmuting within
myself... indescribable, miraculous and very addictive... but playing the
game also gave me an emotionally chaotic life, being always pulled off
balance processing emotions that were not my own.
It was disempowering to my slaves and seekers, too. They became
dependent on me, and unwilling to take responsibility for their own
process. Addicted to the game as I was. Attached to the miracles.
Humans are naturally hierarchical, as all herd creatures are... the
dark side of it, is power struggles and conflict. The plus side of it is
teamwork. Many joining together to accomplish more than one can do alone.
Ants, geese, or the safety in numbers of a herd of zebras. One ox can pull
1000 pounds, but two oxen can pull 5000 pounds... but only if they are
pulling in the same direction. ;)
The Guru game is powerful. Effective... some days I kind of miss the
power and the extravagant miracles, but most days I am happy to be
sovereign in myself and teach others to be sovereign in themselves too...
by surrendering to Goddess within themselves, not Goddess within me.
The Guru Mystress game was intense... many of my slaves attained
realization inside of 6 months, with me clearing their karma for them, but
they were dependent, not able to sustain it on their own. They had not
learned responsibility. Getting them to be independent and sovereign in
themselves was really difficult. Trying to get them weaned... Why would
they want to become toilet trained, if I am always there to change the
diapers? A mother cat chases off her kittens with claws and teeth, when it
is time for them to be independent. A few felt my claws when their
dependence became resistance, too heavy for me to bear.
With a few, because the karma for their actions flowed to me, they did
not believe they had power, and so were reckless in their energy and
projections. I owned them, so what they put out came back to me,
multiplied, and I got so thrashed I had to cut them loose so they would
learn from their own mistakes. Get the karmic feedback from their actions
directly, so they could learn that they had power, and that with power
comes responsibility.
I'm not complaining, they helped me break the addiction. :) The key for
me, is to not take responsibility or allow anyone to become dependent on
me, in the first place. Give the power back as fast as it is projected.
With my FST students, I am willing to give them attention for the first 1/3
of the course, but after that I want them to look within for their answers.
Trust themselves, more than me.
I have a deal with Goddess, the course belongs to Her, She is
responsible for my students progress, and the result is the students karma
flows to Her, directly. It also creates some amazing synchronicity effects
that I am delighted to observe, but take no responsibility for. Goddess did
it. Humility serves me better than a pedestal ever did. Amazing Grace...
Try an experiment, watch one of the FST videos and try to project onto
me... savior, villain, anything... it does not stick. I'm glad of that...
glad to no longer be a slave to the chaos of other people's karma
processing through me. Peace is my reward.
It is like gardening. I can plant the seed, and water it, but Goddess
makes the flowers grow. For many years, I have considered this list to be
like a garden that I am caretaker of. Since I first considered taking on
the responsibility of list owner... it was because watching people bloom
was so lovely, it enriched my life so much... and by being "list owner" I
could be certain the garden would remain, for me to enjoy... not be turned
into a parking lot or shopping mall... :)
It is a wild garden, I do not choose the seeds... tho occasionally I do
pull a weed that threatens to take over... even if it is lovely.
There is a plant called moonvine that grows in Vancouver, a species of
morning glory with white flowers. I like morning glorys but moonvine climbs
up and covers other plants, strangling them, stealing their sunlight and
the other plants die. Once it has taken root, trying to remove it strips
the leaves off the plants it is covering. I have pulled up moonvines that
had runner roots twenty feet long.
Speaking of which...;) I banned CW from the K-list, last month during
the Asa-storm. I had been patient with his power games for years, his
runner roots going into people. I understand exactly how he works, and do
not approve, but preferred to surrender, trusting "Goddess has it
handled"... that was perhaps irresponsible of me. Lazy gardener. In any
case, I had enough.
He likes to take responsibility for everybody's process, taking their
power. In a private email last June he even tried to claim responsibility
for the allergies I was experiencing ... suggesting it was his posts
triggering my karma... but at that time I was not even reading his posts,
leaving them to the co-moderators to handle. Even when I did read them, I
was blocking his energy projections. Because I was blocking, I did not grok
his inference till he spelled it out more clearly in a post he asked Asa to
forward to me... and when I realized what he was inferring, I was outraged
at his arrogance in presuming to take responsibility for my process. That
event was not the straw the broke the camel's back, the "last straw" was
something else... but it is a dead topic, so I'll not go into it now. CW
has his own list, those who want to play his game can find him in his
garden, and let his seeds and vines take root in them if they choose.
I have fennel growing in my back yard. It is an amazing plant, shoots
up 8 feet tall in a summer, with soft, fragrant feathery fern like leaves
and abundant flowers that produce pounds of sweet licorice flavoured
seeds... I love it, so beautiful but the seeds blow everywhere, and the
sprouts send roots to china, breaking up concrete and crowding out the
other plants.
A weed is a plant that is in the wrong place. This weekend I will cut
all the flowers off the fennel, chop the top three feet off the plants,
because I would rather sacrifice the flowers and seeds, than spend all next
year digging deep rooted fennel sprouts out of my vegetable garden, and
trying to remove them from the cracks in the pavement.
Thanks for listening to my rambling...
Blessings...
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