To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/09/12 01:29
Subject: Re: [K-list] Guru story
From: José H
On 2002/09/12 01:29, José H posted thus to the K-list:
Hi Lori,
Allthough I never visited him in India, I also felt that he was present in
my home here once or twice. I felt he was challenging me, maybe even teasing
me or testing me. It might have been something like you say, trying to get
you angry, but i didn't become angry, so I wouldn't know really. Why he was
over here, I don't know, since he never was my guru. But I am very sure it
was him being here, his presence was very obvious.
Jose
> Hi All
>
> I'd like to share a story with you about gurus. My first awakening (that
I
> am aware of), happened in 98 when I went to India and saw Sai Baba. Just
> over a year later, I was working in Germany, and He appeared to me twice.
> While He was with me, I experienced a lot of pain at the root chakra. I
was
> quite frightened and asked Him to stop as I didn't know what he was doing.
> For 2.5 years I trusted that He 'knew best'.
>
> I started to hear stories about how other people were claiming He was
> abusing them and claiming it was in the name of Kundalini. I didn't feel
> the experience was sexual, but I didn't know. In February this year I was
> driving in the south of France, just contemplating the fact that He might
> have been abusing me. I was driving on the motorway, and the car began to
> swerve. I knew it was Him and I shouted, "Stop it! You may have been
doing
> what You thought was best, and perhaps my higher self knew, but my lower
> self didn't understand what was happening. You didn't respect all of me!"
> The car stopped swerving, and I felt like I was travelling in a bubble of
> peace from then on.
>
> I learned that He likes people to be angry with him, because Sai Baba
works
> in a way that He reflects back people's own issues, and yes, for a long
time
> I didn't have any respect for myself and I allowed others to control me.
I
> knew a big shift had taken place that day. I don't see Him as my 'guru' -
> I'm not tied to any spiritual tradition at the moment (though I sometimes
> practice Kriya Yoga and Kundalini Yoga). However, He still pops up at
> interesting times. He hasn't abandoned me, even though I don't worship
him
> like many others do.
>
> Any comments welcome.
> Lori
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