To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/08/25 06:47
Subject: [K-list] General. (Replying Hilary's mail)
From: Gregor Gonnella
On 2002/08/25 06:47, Gregor Gonnella posted thus to the K-list:
Thanks Hilary, thats really nice of you :). I met up with Kate a girl from
the list in Edinburgh. It was imformative, a little scarey to hear what she
has been through. We talked fot 2 hours solid about K issues, I was
exhausted.
She suggested I contact someone for the spiritual emergency network and she
is sending me the contact details soon.
I wish I could share what I am going through with my mum, but she doesn't
understand what its like. I want to tell her everything but I know it
wouldn't work. I've tried to make her understand but she just gets scared
and angry. Its really nice to be able to share it all with you(s). I'm
thinking of getting a counsellor to be able to talk things over with.
Basically I'm just surviving though, the CFS and the K make a pritty
leathal
combination. I think about suicide at times but its just an act of
desperation.
The meditation issue hasn't left me. I have to fight the urge to meditate.
I
wish I had someone hre to "hold my hand" and say, "just meditate, it will
be
all right" but its such a hard personal journey, you have to face all the
demons youself. Being able to write emails certainly helps though.
I tried what you said, about asking the K energy if there was an easier way
for it to break through, rather than meditation. I kind of end up lying
very
still and the K energy works away on my blocks, but its sore and nothing
seems to work like meditation. But also meditation has its short falls
afterwards. (Hugley increased K).
I've thought of callling the K energy "The Holy Spirit" as it makes it more
personal and more "human". Its not just a inhuman force, it is a "being"
trying to come into you.
I keep asking god to put me back to the way I was before. I used to Love
meditation I felt I was doing so well and all my illnesses cleared up. When
K came along it brought CFS and I feel So much worse than I did before K. I
fail to see the point in it at times.
Thanks for thinking of me. For me that's half the battle knowing there's
someone you can talk to who understands what you are going through. It
makes
it seem so much more bearable.
Gregor.
----- Original Message -----
> From: <DruoutATnospamaol.com>
> To: <gregorATnospamaberdour.force9.co.uk>
> Sent: Saturday, August 24, 2002 7:11 PM
> Subject: Re: [K-list] Hi!
> >
In a message dated 8/16/2002 1:29:07 PM Pacific Daylight Time,
> > gregorATnospamaberdour.force9.co.uk writes:
> >
> >
> > Dear Gregor,
> >
> > Just checking in to see how you are doing! :))
> >
> > Love, Hillary
> >
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