Recieved: 2002/07/09 12:20
Subject: Re: [K-list] Thought Forms
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2002/07/09 12:20, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 11:05 AM 09/07/02, Carol Singer wrote:
>Mystress mentioned something about astral thought forms hanging around
>influencing people. I have heard this before, that there are 3 big
>ones: 1) I am going to be a GREAT HEALER 2) I am going to be a GREAT
>SPIRITUAL LEADER . Darn, can't remember #3. I think it was something
>like 3) I'm going to buy a big plot of land and establish a
>sanctuary/wellness center/retreat facility that will become a bastion of
>Light holding back the Darkness.
Yup, been there, all three... and let them go.
As a fellow acting student told me once, "needing to be a movie star
and be loved by millions points to a pretty big need for attention and
approval." Two sides to everything.
The Shamanic time travel dream, age 9 took place at my future...
alternate dimensional sanctuary, wellness center etc... and I chased it for
years, grew into the woman I had dreamt of, even found the building where
the dream took place.. an empty 500 room hotel on the central coast of BC.
I spent a lot of time and energy trying to make it happen, alternately
surrendering it because if Goddess wants it then it is up to Her to make it
so. I do not have the millions...
Spent June 2001 sailing up there and getting support from the local
community. The day before we were to leave was Solstice, and I was moved to
create a labyrinth in the parking lot of the old hotel, and walk it in
surrender. Gave the dream up to Goddess, "Thy will be done", as I had so
many times before... only this time, She did not give it back.
When I got over my disappointment and confusion, what remained was a
sense of freedom. Instead of being a slave to destiny, my future was wide
open... Goddess gave me back, my life... Still not sure what to do with it,
but I am finding peace in being very ordinary. Chop wood...
One of the most influential books in my life was Richard Bach's
"Illusions; the adventures of a reluctant messiah". It was my bible when I
was 16, and remains a touchstone.
"21: and it came to pass, when he saw that the multitude thronged him
the more day on day, tighter and closer and fiercer than ever they had,
when he saw that they pressed him to heal them without rest, and feed them
always with his miracles, to learn fro them and to live their lives, he
went alone that day unto a hilltop apart, and there he prayed.
22. And he said in his heart, Infinite Radiant Is, if it be thy will,
let this cup pass from me, let me lay aside this impossible task. I cannot
live the life of one other soul, yet ten thousand cry to me for life.
I'm sorry I allowed it all to happen. If it be thy will, let me go back to
my engines and my tools, and let me live as other men.
23. And a voice spoke to him on the hilltop, a voice neither male nor
female, loud nor soft, a voice infinitely kind.
And the voice said unto him, "Not my will, but thine be done. for what is
they will is mine for thee. Go they way as other men, and be thou happy on
Follow your bliss.
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