To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/05/15 12:00
Subject: Re: [K-list] Comments on Digest Number 993
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2002/05/15 12:00, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 11:02 AM 14/05/02, LBra782595ATnospamaol.com wrote:
>On Mystress Angelique: .......................Gosh, and I was obsessed with
>her just because I wanted her to tie me up and beat some sense into
>me...............:^) Obsessions are fine. The point almost unerringly
>toward something that is troubling you and allow you a avenue of access.
Heh... good call, Jason.
People tend to become obsessed with me. It used to really upset me, some
of them turned into stalkers, etc. ...but finally I realized that it is not
about me. It is their relationship to my Shakti-field... pokes up their ego
stuff, and if they do not want to own it they project it onto me... and
then they are off to the races, struggling with the idea of me they carry
in their head... which is their own reflection, of the parts of themselves
they reject. Their shadow wears my face, in their mind.
What they resist, persists especially with Shakti pushing on it, and so
turns into obsession. Some people's obsessions have lasted for years...
most of them insist that it is my doing, that I am secretly in love with
them yadda yadda... usual crazy stuff. That they want to "help" me or
"save" me is a common ego excuse for their control games and non consensual
behavior.
It has nothing to do with me, as a human woman... except I am the
vessel of Shakti that triggered the stuff. Ironically, the obsession itself
prevents them getting close to me, because they do not see me. They relate
to the idea of me they have in their head and never see me.
Communication is impossible because everything is seen through a
filter... distorted. I have sometimes tried to communicate to get them to
snap out of it but it never works. Free Will is Goddess Law. They hold onto
it till they decide to stop... continuing to try to demand my attention,
which I am quite unwilling to give them because the whole game is so very
disrespectful. It seems any attention they get from me, only serves to feed
the obsession.
The incoming energy of the projections often smells like black magic.
Not respectful of free will... trying to change the woman I am to the woman
in their head. They cannot make the distinction between the woman in their
head, and me... so they give power and responsibility (blame) to me that I
don't want, and their karma too... and often from some kind of self serving
ego pedestal of how they want to "save" me. Sheeesh!
What is about me, is that I do not always have detachment, when someone
reacts to my Shakti field and confuses what it does, with who I am. I am
very sensitive to projections... if I am not mindful, I get caught in them.
I was an excellent Pro-Dom, world famous because of a single talent...
to read their minds, accept the projections and become the Dominant Goddess
of my clients dreams. Really, a slave to who they wanted me to be. I don't
do that anymore. To my own Self be true... the projections can return to
sender.
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