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Recieved: 2002/04/04 17:06
Subject: [K-list] kundalini syndrome
From: J-F Beaulieu

I have had a "kundalini awakening" experience about 8-10 months ago. The one
that feels like a snake climbing your spine too fast and the alienation,
anger and bliss that comes along. Let me explain:

I was at an outdoor party, in nature, and met couple of friends that were
already there. All the people were not there yet. Now there was this girl
there too with them who I didn't know. I went to talk and greet my friends,
then I was standing just by the girl. I said hello and introduced myself. By
then I started feeling a little weird and stop talking to her to watch the
fire. When people started to arrive everything was still cool with me, but
until a little later I went to stand next to the same girl again. It was
funny because I felt something just by standing there, it felt nice so I
stayed there without talking or looking at her. Then she said something to
me, my first reaction was that I was angry, then I was very flattered. Ok so
I am not getting straight to the point. Read this, later on she comes up to
me and doesn't say a word. Then I began babbling about a bunch of non-sense
about how I liked her hair and whatnot. I was both mad and happy while
laughing at the same time. It was nuts, I felt like some energy in my back
rising to my crown chakra very fast until i could not control my body. At
that point I was completely alienated by what had just happened out of the
blue. Do you see what I mean?

Few weeks later I was having very bad insomnia and a very hard time to
control my own body. I thought the insomnia was caused by my marijuana use
during the summer and thus causing me to act very strangely and say things I
don't want to say at all. Today I still have these problems and I am
starting martial arts to see if I can get a path out of this to something
better. Just last week I started to read documents about Reiki and the
chakras, as I remember getting it from having been to a yoga session where
we were all guided to make the kundalini rise. Then I thought about all the
meditation in my life I have been doing alone and my experiences with
entheogens. I read about the madness side-effect when the kundalini rises
too fast and I just could not believe I was actually crazy. I read about the
two opposed sides of the kundalini, I think the one that is unbalanced is
the one that causes intense paranoia. Will I stay this way forever? Can
kundalini yoga help me find a way to get better? There must be millions
throughout the world with the same thing.

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