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Recieved: 2002/04/02 07:47
Subject: [K-list] K and me...
From: gigawatt
On 2002/04/02 07:47, gigawatt posted thus to the K-list:
> Thanks for the responses on my new experience with k and my fear of
> it. There is just a lot of negative press out there. I'll trust what
> I have going on internally.
I read Gopi's book.... along the time I read Robert Monroe's book....
'Journeys out of the Body'.... and the funny thing, I had already had
my first experience in being fully conscious, Out of the Body... it was
scary at first, but soon looked forward to it... I couldn't wait to get
to sleep, so I could pull out, and go do something or, visit some own...
and when I started on this journey, over 20 years ago... I didn't
believe that either Kundalini, or travel, Out of the Body was real.
When I read Gopi's book... I thought that this was a better pursuit
than merely going OB... that was back in 1977... so I was going
to try to raise K.... I didn't know that the rushing wind was already
a part of it... On one occasion I was dancing with my wife, and some
friends, and the music was nice... and suddenly there was a rushing
wind... I could feel and hear it... rushing outside my body, upwards...
and at the time... I didn't know that this was K... but it was on the
outside of my body... not the inside...
I had this unexpected pleasure for many times... and the wind
would get closer and closer... The gist of this missive, is that
K would come many times... I didn't know then, that I should
have tried to capture it with my mind, force it back down the
spinal column, back down the Shusma nerve... and slowly
allow it to flow up the Pingala (hot nerve) and the Ida (cold nerve)..
I was a neophyte, and didn't know any better...
The big one came about 1983... don't remember the exact
date... but when I meditated, I would see dream images that
would give me good information... I lost those abilities for
20 years... but it is all coming back... I think it is the new
millennium cycle...and fits in with my new independent or
self sufficient lifestyle... at least the visions or directed
dreams are coming back... I hope all the other things will
come back too... Having all these abilities for five years...
then they terminated suddenly.... (which I knew was going
to happen... I saw the vision)... I think they are slowly
returning now...
Anyway... the night the big one hit... I new it was coming...
one of my first inklings that it was on the way was a vision
I saw... it was the earth floating in space... It looked like
that neon earth in front of Astroworld park.... and a tube
attached itself to the earth.... and snaked itself upwards
into space, and attached itself to my stomach... which I
was floating in space.... I knew it was on the way, again...
I didn't know how bit it was going to be...
The next vision during meditation was the image of a
man standing on a street corner...It was the darkest of
nights, and the building on the corner left room for only
the sidewalk...
There was a bright, and white, light around the corner
and illuminated the man... he had a gun pointed at me...
I knew the light was just around the corner, and was
ready to fire... so that night, I meditated long... 5 hours..
or more... but it still didn't come...
The next night, I was a bit disappointed...but again,
I meditated... within 30 minutes, I was in a deep state,
and then fell asleep.... losing all consciousness in my
meditation... suddenly I awoke... a fine perspiration
appeared on my skin, all over my body...and I could
feel three wiener size beams of light in my lower
intestine... it was nice, as these three light beams
quickly (within two seconds) trained their way through
the intestine, and then up my spinal column... and
into my brain... then, with my eyes still closed, the whole
room lit up... I could see the sun... it was close... in fact
closer than Mercury is to the Sun... I could see a lush
valley, with the wall to wall sun... and I was near the
mountain top... I saw a religious figure take a small
horn (a Happy New Years horn) and I heard and
watched him blow it...
It was awesome... then the internal image began to
fade, and die away, like the last embers of a camp
fire.... and then blackness again... and again, I entered
this, as all the other big events, into my large Journal...
I thought at the time... I had graduated into a new
way of life... but.... all my psychic powers and abilities
began to fade... I asked for another vision, and saw
a small boat on the ocean... like a small cabin cruiser,
and it was a clear day, with the sun overhead.... then
unexpectedly, the sun began to set quickly.... I tried
to grab the sun with my mind, and keep it overhead...
but it became harder... and suddenly my mind lost its
grip, and the sun plunged down, over the horizon,
leaving me in darkness.... I knew that the Happy
New Years Kundalini experience, was the termination
of that old way... and that I would have a period of
darkness....
Well, that was 20 years ago... I did have a few
visions after the termination... each one indicating that
I would go through a long period of non psychic
abilities....and I should have to wait for awhile...
Now, I am 65 years old, in good health, and the
visions seem to be slowly on the upswing... I can
barely create a vision now... but it is coming back,
even though it is ever so slowly... I miss those old
powers.... especially the ones where I could will
events to happen... that was fun... being a senior
citizen, without any abilities suck...
Anyway, that is what happened to me.... when I
started having these experiences, 20 years ago...
I expected to have the Gopi Krishna, life threatening
experience... but... that didn't happen with me...
I have, over the years, come to believe, that my
time over the last 20 years was not wasted... In
those few visions that I had, my inner self was in
school, learning and studying, preparing for what
ever lies ahead... and the visions did tell me, that
when that day comes, I would be able to choose
the path that suits me... it would be my choice...
So maybe the day of parlor tricks are over... and
the real inner growth is all that matters...
I do know, that Kundalini is real, and liberating, and
that traveling Out of the Body is also real, and very
liberating... I have even visited some of my dead
relatives... they were much the same on the other
side, as they are here...
Anyway, as I have said, that is what happened to
me.
Gig
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