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Recieved: 2002/03/25 12:07
Subject: [K-list] Personality Changes poll results
From: Druout
On 2002/03/25 12:07, Druout posted thus to the K-list:
Poll questions: Do you feel that you have had a change in personality since
you started feeling Kundalini energy? What changes have you, or others around
you, felt? Do you feel they have been positive or negative.
Fifteen people answered the Personality Changes Poll.
1. "Do you feel that you have had a change in personality since you started
feeling Kundalini energy?"
Fourteen said they had experienced changes. One person said it was too soon
to tell.
Some of the modifying words or phrases used were: Profound; Many; COMPLETELY;
An unqualified yes; Yes, many changes...things I like and don't like; a total
YES.
Two people said their whole outlook on life had changed.
One person said, he seemed to keep metamorphosing regularly.
One person mentioned become creative.
Another asked if it really is personality change? "I would say it is the
"centering" of the psychological components of the personality."
2. "What changes have you, or others around you, felt?"
Seven people mentioned feeling more assertive, confident, powerful, had more
direction, or were in more control
Eight people said they were more laid back, grounded, relaxed, tranquil,
peaceful. Life was easier, more cooperative; an ability to "float along on
top of the water."
While one person said that "Basically I have had a personality change no
longer being a poor me, identifying with my story my history," " just the
opposite was experienced by another: "I guess I feel sorry for myself in a
way I haven't before. I feel slightly victimized, something that I would not
like to admit."
Another experienced wide range of volatile emotion--from "enormous anger and
hatred... to enormous compassion, love and patience." Another said she was
"more well rounded in love. I seem to have a new heart now. (literally!)"
Three people mentioned feeling happiness and joy. One person said, "I am
experiencing, for the first time in my life, the feeling of being allowed to
exist on this earth, grace from the spiritual world maybe, a great happiness
and bliss inside that I feel is the most healing thing that ever happened to
me."
Another person, though said she felt "less joyful, less willing to do things
around people, often depressed, and all around dulled."
Some other comments:
"Before I had many many fears and panic attacks...I finally can say I love
who I am for the first time in my life"
"Feel better about me than I've felt before since I was preschool age."
"My ability to put up with bull, as well as not put up with bull."
Q: What changes have others felt?
Seven people mentioned their changes were noticed by others.
Some comments:
Wife sees me as not being as accepting or understanding. Friends see me as
having backbone.
They do not all see the change, only GOOD friends. One of them told me; I
can see it on your eyes...
People thing I am "old" now...they feel like I am constantly having a hard
time....
As far as others are concerned: the ones that also experience similar
feelings have noticed that I am more relaxed, happy, more cooperative and
receiving and more powerfull at the same time. I am more grounded into my
body, which people can literally see; I used to jump around and was moving
like a scared deer; now I am taking up more space and I am not so jumpy
anymore.
I think that my husband has noticed alot of changes in me definately I am
finding myself and have more direction now as for everyone else lol I think
that they look at me and now that I am more spiritual they think I am
ridiculous...
it is very apparent to others that I have developed in many areas.
I search more silence and isolation, being in contact with mother nature.
Less interested on political or press matters. Change in clothes and make up
being more simple in my expectations and goals. No big cities, less friends,
only those with whom I share better.
It may sound corny, but I truly am 'FEELING' the love of my enemies instead
of justifying MY position.
.
To the third question: Do you feel [the changes have been positive or
negative?.
Eleven people said it was positive,
one negative, her life turned upside down
one said it was neither positive or negative but growth
Another said it seemed to be moving toward positive.
Didn't know yet
Some comments:
Coming out the other end, as far as I've, much to the good. Real pain in the
ass going through it.
I got my aura photographed yesterday and was told that my Heart Chakra is the
most developed. I have been working specifically on that so that's good
news for me.
It's been growth for me, not positive or negative
WAY POSITIVE!!!!!!
The extremes lately seemed to get further. Although I somehow feel I am
close to being over the worst of it as I am accepting myself more and more.
I hope one day I can sit in the middle of it all. MAS recently has been
brilliant in pushing me out of a stupid mess I got myself into.
Positive, absolutely
I'm feeling quite negative at the moment since my life is being turned upside
down- again...In a year I could feel this is the best thing that has ever
happened!
Absolutely positive
Positive, more relaxed.
Despite others views I think it is very positive and hubby is very accepting
too lol so that is all that counts.
I am happy with myself and I have achieved a tranquility 'within' myself and
I have a much better understanding of others
...thus far, my vote is two thumbs up for Kundalini personality!
Too soon to tell for me.
The Posts:
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Since I was born with it, obviously. But I think you mean since I've
actually known what it was and started working with it.
Answer there is also an unqualified yes.
I'm much much more laid back and relaxed than I ever was before. I credit
most of that to my practices and effort. I'm not enlightened but I have
brought forward personality traits from my last life along with a lot of
sadness that went with it. Luckily I had a chance to play out some of that
karma over the last 18 months. Could put a lot of bad emotions to bed after
that. Feel better about me than I've felt before since I was preschool age.
Not that I haven't got a ways to go yet.
Coming out the other end, as far as I've, much to the good. Real pain in the
ass going through it.
********
I believe that I have become more assertive in the
positive sense.
I got my aura photographed yesterday and was told that
my Heart Chakra is the most developed. I have been
working specifically on that so that's good news for
me.
My aura also told me that I am much more grounded than
I thought myself to be. It was pretty much entirely of
a bright red/orangish color with some yellow towards
the center. Orange stands for the second chakra and
suggests a centered state. Yellow is the color of the
3rd chakra and suggests extension/projection of
energy.
I have also been running the Orbits regularly for over
a year now, a Taoist technique for mellowing out the K
and for uniformly distributing energy to all the
Chakras as required. I also study Aikido, an Internal
martial art, which involves cultivation of the first 3
chakras for grounding, centering and extending the Ki
respectively.
**********
Way I respond to stuff. Perceptual, I guess. This has happened a few times.
My ability to put up with bull, as well as not put up with bull. Since I've
been at least moderately active since I was 25, don't know if it was a part
of normal maturation or by-product of the spiritual process. For me, all in
the same thing.
It's been growth for me, not positive or negative. Wife sees me as not being
as accepting or understanding. Friends see me as having backbone.
***********
COMPLETELY!
( although outwardly not specifically noticed by others.)...you'ld have to
ask
them! ;0)
Outlook on life DRAMATICALLY shifted, ie: 'Knowingness' of how all of life
truly has no Chaos, but has serendipty upon serendipity woven into a pattern
that I had been too close to to SEE it before! Affected my Love and Zest for
life to by multiplied to infinity the moment I WOKE up Jan 16 1996.
More recent shift has caused the intelligent, witty, ready to 'counter'
anothers' comment with a quip that made another 'think' about new
possibilities...to now lay even much lower and more well rounded in love.
I seem to have a new heart now. ( literally! ) I now am realizing that each
one of us is 'always' right, so I must ALWAYS send the other who just cut me
off in traffice on their path with love, completely! . As they say,
something
like: why fight with a pig, they are the ones who love to get dirty!
> What changes have you, or others around you, felt.
It may sound corny, but I truly am 'FEELING' the love of my enemies instead
of
justifying MY position. ( I don't like getting dirty. Just floatong on the
top of the water, there are some sharp rocks on the bottom that I don't
really
need to experience anymore.)
> Do you feel they have been positive or negative.
WAY POSITIVE!!!!!!!!!
**********
Too soon to tell for me, not even sure I feel K yet. If it's happening I
really can't tell, but to me following this "path" is a way to find the
true me. Dunno exactly how it has or will change me. Good luck with the
poll!
**********
Many times I'd say. I seem to keep metamorphosing regularly and don't
know when this might end. Many days I seem to see something about the
World which I haven't seen for a long time. As my outlook changes my
personality invariably changes too.
Enormous anger and hatred to others at my worst. At my best, enormous
compassion, love and patience. I've bobbed in and out of the view state
on a few occasions. If only I could sustain this! I realise now that my
hatred towards people is a reflection of myself thanks to MAS, so try to
look in the mirror more which has helped me so much lately! Right now I
feel much more peaceful on the inside. I'm not fighting myself so much
as I used to. I've also found myself being more creative. I wrote a
little poem for the first time ever about a month ago. This is something
I could not have done prior to K and letting go of stuff.
The extremes lately seemed to get further. Although I somehow feel I am
close to being over the worst of it as I am accepting myself more and
more. I hope one day I can sit in the middle of it all. MAS recently has
been brilliant in pushing me out of a stupid mess I got myself into.
**************
I think I have an easy time of it regarding K as I was given
Shaktipat by a Realized Guru also having done the AA 12 step program and had
I suppose dark nights of the soul prior to K.
However I think K led me to various books ie by Ramana, Yogananda, and now
Eckhart Tolle that have greatly helped me to at least endevour to live in
the present moment and with a degree of internal silence. Basically I have
had a personality change no longer being a poor me, identifying with my
story my history. If I choose I can talk about the past with out emotion or
negativity or ego for that matter so yes I have had a profound change.
*******
A total YES. Afterwards; more confident. My view of life had total changed.
They do not all see the change, only GOOD friends. One of them told me; I
can see it on your eyes.....
Positive, absolutely.
************
Hmmmmn... Well, disorientation, fear, feelings of "otherness," past-life
memories. I guess I feel sorry for myself in a way I haven't before. I feel
slightly victimized, something that I would not like to admit (even to
myself). I think if there was a change in my personality, it would be that I
feel less joyful, less willing to do things around people, often depressed,
and all around dulled.
I feel overwhelmed by information that I feel like I can't necessarily trust
as truth, since truth in its totality- keeps showing itself as something I
will never understand.
People think I am "old" now, (and I don't mean the positive aspects of
growing older.) They feel like I am constantly having a hard time. I
attribute my attitude partially to my surroundings because my husband has
held a negative approach to "Kundalini" for me. It was when I met him that I
even heard of the word and after I did research into the idea, I realized
that was what had been happening to me.
I feel like my family and friends have been doubtful of my experience and
wanted to label it as something negative because I wasn't enjoying the
process. They wanted to know the end result of my "suffering" and I couldn't
tell them. I think their conclusion was if she can't tell me it's a good
thing and why- then it must be a bad thing.
I'm feeling quite negative at the moment since my life is being turned upside
down- again. Overall I have the feeling that this is a tremendous experience
and I would like to hold myself in relationship to it in a way that I feel
empowered and not just like a wierdo. For the last 2 years my journey with K
has been to embrace it as a gift and be able to have this gift and still
function in the world. I feel like my general experience of it as of late has
just been so challenging. We'll see. In a year I could feel like this is the
best thing that has ever happened!
*********
Yes - mostly in internal feelings and the way I experience the world around
me, but I do think a mayor change has happened that will have an effect on
my personality in the long run.
I am experiencing, for the first time in my life, the feeling of being
allowed to exist on this earth, grace from the spiritual world maybe, a
great happiness and bliss inside that I feel is the most healing thing that
ever happened to me.
As far as others are concerned: the ones that also experience similar
feelings have noticed that I am more relaxed, happy, more cooperative and
receiving and more powerfull at the same time. I am more grounded into my
body, which people can literally see: I used to jump around and was moving
like a scared deer, now I am taking up more space and I am not so jumpy
anymore.
Absolutely positive - allthough the friends that I have thrown out of my
life will say otherwise - there are two who projected so much on to me that
I cut off the contact. They will label my change as negative, since I am not
"nice" anymore -simply because I refuse to put up with their projections and
harmful patterns towards me any longer.
So to me - yes absolutely positive.
*********
Yes more than I can tell you lol my whole outlook on life has changed I have
been forced to deal with my fears and before the k I had many many fears and
panic attacks so I think this has been so good for me I finally can say I
love
who I am for the first time in my life Im still working toward my ultimate
goal
of being healed every day of course even know I am a diff person I still have
a
LONG ways to go :) but glad to be blessed with such a wonderful gift.
I think that my husband has noticed alot of changes in me definately I am
finding myself and have more direction now as for everyone else lol I think
that they look at me and now that I am more spiritual they think I am
ridiculous I have a very plain family (dont know how to say it) and even
though I keep most of my thoughts and feelings from them (they dont know much
about the real me) The little that they do know of me I guess my love and
light attitude and new intrests in metaphysical healing is basiclly a joke to
them so as much as I would love to share with the world what I love I tend to
stick with my people of same intrest ok lol am getting off subject sorry I am
tired right now anyway yes despite others views I think it is very positive
and
hubby is very accepting too lol so that is all that counts.
*******
Hi Everyone, Is it really a personality change? I would say it is the
"centering" of the psychological components of the personality. However some
people have noticed that I am in control of my life and this so called
change has taken a long time. Also, it is very apparent to others that I
have developed in many areas. I am involved with a number of highly educated
people who are interested in my ideas and I might add that I have no
academic degrees. The final conclusion, I am happy with myself and I have
achieved a tranquility 'within' myself and I have a much better
understanding of others.
**********
I believe that my personality as changed for the better. I seem to be more
even in my moods. Happier, Joyful, smiling and laughing at life easier.
Life has become a joy to me instead of a pain. I have moved forward in my
life with goals. And have quit literally changed the direction I was headed
in. I have embarked on a new career in Massage Therapy and finished up my
Reiki Master. Probably the only thing that I do notice ,that sometimes is
hard to live with, is a certain amount of nervous energy. And when I really
focus this nervous energy, it too can be wonderful, as everything I do gets
done faster!
So, thus far, my vote is two thumbs up for Kundalini personality!
********
:)) Yes, things I like and dont like
:)) I search more silence and isolation, being in contact with mother
nature.
Less interested on political or press matters. Change in clothes and make up
being more simple in my expectations and goals. One day at a time.
No big cities, less friends, only those with whom I share better.
:)) Positive, more relaxed
*******
Dear List,
Thought I'd answer my own poll before finishing up the tally. :))
> Do you feel that you have had a change in personality since you started
feeling Kundalini energy?
Changes have been fairly dramatic, although much more obvious to me than to
those around me. In fact it used to amaze me that few could see the profound
changes I was experiencing
>What changes have you, or others around you, felt.
I'm much more confident and independent. Also more relaxed and at ease with
others. I loosened up--even my walk became more fluid. Tension fell from my
face and body. From being shy and retiring, I became less inhibited and more
outspoken and assertive. Many intangible fears I didn't even know I had
simply lifted. I used to avoid being around other people, especially
strangers. Now I enjoy others' company.
I'm happier and feel a nearly continuous sense of joy--getting immense
enjoyment from even little things. A glass of fruit juice can be ambrosia.
I lost the fear of the future, *knowing* everything was taken care of.
I asked my husband what changes he noticed in me. His response:
Quicker to take offense. Domineering instead of submissive. Very
self-assertive. Sometimes calmer and composed.
LOL!
>Do you feel they have been positive or negative.
100% positive. ;)
END
Thanks everybody! :))
Love, Hillary
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/kindex.htm
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