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Recieved: 2002/03/25 05:33
Subject: Re: [K-list] Starting again
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2002/03/25 05:33, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 01:32 AM 25/03/02, Rhianna Amdal wrote:
> Did any of you experience this? Do you
>still experience this? My body feels like it is going
>out of control again, and I have to use much energy to
>keep control,
Rhianna, have you ever tried just letting the energy do what it wants?
You will wear yourself out trying to control it, and your effort to control
it is the source of your problems. If you just relax and allow the
movements, they pass... and as you have observed, the K. process has made
you a better person. So, why not trust it? Really, this energy is wise and
it knows what it is doing.
You wear yourself out, trying to swim against the current. Stop, relax
and go with the flow. When you had children, did you learn Lamaze? Apply
Lamaze to K. Breathe, hold onto your touchstone and ride it out without
fighting.
>it's a feeling as if parts want to twist
>and shake all the time.
These movements are not at all mysterious. Your body has its own
wisdom, and it is doing what it needs to do, to get your very precious life
energy to flow through you better.
The twitches and shakes are unconsciously held stress, releasing. Old
fear, old pain and scars. Your body wants to twist and stretch to help the
stress release.
The Kundalini is trying to clear your body and heal you, shape you into
the manifestation of your true potential.
So, the method feels kind of weird sometimes but you have to surrender
and let it win. You only get beat up, if you fight. If you struggle for
control, then you get into an argument with your body... and as you
discovered, it can be very stubborn. It has to win, your life is at stake
and it loves you more than you can even try to love yourself.
K. is often called the Mother Goddess. You are a mother, you know you
have to do what is best for your children even if they resist, scream and
cry. It is your responsibility to be stronger then them... and so it is
with K.
The body speaks in the language of metaphors... what you put out comes
back multiplied. You tried to stop the K., it stopped you. Breath is
symbolic and literally, life energy. K. is life energy. You tried to
restrict it, and that showed up literal... not being able to breathe.
It was trying to get you to stop fighting, to give up! Surrender means
give up, and that is what you have to do. Stop struggling for control and
let the energy do what it needs to do.
If you look back, the process was blissful until you got scared and
started fighting it. If you would like it to be blissful again, stop fighting.
Sure it will be scary sometimes. Life is scary sometimes. Face your
fear, let it go and then it is gone, and you are better off without it. It
is only showing up because it is saying goodbye on its way out.
> If this continues, I can't
>even join this list. And that would be a loss, because
>I have found it very useful to read what you have to
>share. But it starts everything again.
Your K. will always start up when you are around other awakened people.
Even through cyberspace. There are several hundred awakened people on this
list. Awakened people are everywhere.
Are you going to spend the rest of your life running away from all the
kind, spiritual people whom you would probably most like to know? What kind
of life would that be?
It is starting again... yes, once it starts it must keep going until
the job is done, and by fighting you are really only prolonging your own
misery.
You are not helpless. There is one thing you can do. Change your
attitude.
I get the symptoms you describe. Shaking, sure.. sometimes my body
wanting to do spontaneous streches and yoga. Short term catatonia where my
body is immobile and my mind is very alert. Sometimes my body spontaneously
stops breathing for a while... but I usually do not notice until I start
again, with a sigh... or I notice someone is looking at me with concern. So
what? It is not uncommon among awakened people. Just another of the little
miracles.
I like em! I like them so much I sometimes take on karma stuff from
other people just to feel again, the amazing things my body does to clear
it right out and keep me whole and healthy. The more I go with the flow of
what the body wants, the better my whole life gets.
I know you are getting a charge from this post, because sometime after
I started writing to you, I noticed getting shaky and my head is making
little twitches to the left. My energy working to clear the stiff neck
stubornness of creeped out fear that is yours. Not mine.
I am twiching. So what? No biggie. Not unusual, or the least bit worrying.
I stop, relax and surrender to it, just letting it happen. Two minutes
of twitching and it is gone from me. My head is still. Hands are still a
little shaky but shortly I will be off to bed. I will lie flat and let the
day's events pass through my mind, and feel all the little reactions as my
body releases anything that does not serve me. Heals me of the days wear
and tear... Blessed be!
Including some of the stuff I got back because it was stirred up in
you by the focus of my attention and the emotions that are triggered by my
words... through time. All those little reactions you try to control, I
relax and enjoy feeling. It is love. It is the body's self healing
mechanism kicking in. It is a gift!!
Kundalini is the body and the soul working together to turn the body
into a temple of the soul. To do that, it has to clear you. All the old
fear has to go. The process of clearing can have some pretty weird symptoms
but they pass. With every twitch and every shaking spell, you become more
whole. Eventually, they pass... and you remain. A new, happier more loving
you.
It is coming up again, as it must, inevitably. It will be different, if
you respond to it differently.
One thing that is different, is that you have found a community of
people who understand what you are talking about, who have experience with
the process to reassure you that you are not crazy. People to support you,
and hold your hand as you go through the labour pains of giving birth to a
new Self.
It is your call... :) Blessings!
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