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Recieved: 2002/01/21 16:48
Subject: RE: [K-list] Re: suicide stuff
From: Jennifer
On 2002/01/21 16:48, Jennifer posted thus to the K-list:
I have never been suicidal but four years ago, I took a sabbatical from life
as I knew it .. I followed what I believed to be a spiritual calling (my
friends and enemies will tell you I ran away from home; my husband was too
shell-shocked to know what was happening; and my college aged kids saw it as
mom putting into action yet another role modeling adventure for them to
watch and learn from :) ..I returned home 8 months later ... am still on
sabbatical but a liter version as I redefine, reshape and activate my path
.... it has not been without its surprises and challenges but one of the
many lessons I learned was that when you make a clear choice with intention,
and you have faith in your belief that you will grow wings as you feel
yourself fall .. the universe will respond in kind ....
Jennifer
-----Original Message-----
From: marraskuu1978 [mailto:marraskuu1978ATnospamyahoo.com]
Sent: Monday, January 21, 2002 5:28 PM
To: K-list
Subject: [K-list] Re: suicide stuff
Joyful Fairy,
I totally agree. In fact I made that promise to myself last year.
If ever I become suicidal to the point where I have to dump life
completely, I will do it by deleting my environment, not myself.
Flee the country... run away from work, from debts, from stress. Just
buy a one-way ticket to somewhere nice like Europe and start a new
life, a new adventure.
I often dream of such an escape. The world of work is very evil and
often I feel there is no meaning in it all. I've been reading a lot
of the essays on www.primitivism.com
We live in a society where we grow food in order to lock it up and
make you work 40 hours a week to earn money to buy it back. I need
money to survive, yet my soul does not feel fulfilled from the work I
do. My most productive hours of the day, 5 days a week, are given
away. Perhaps I just haven't found what I want to do in life yet.
Incidentally, I have never tried yoga yet... but because of my
anxieties and low level of physical activity in life, I am convinced
kundalini will do me good. I will start yoga this week.
life is depressing me. I have so many hobbies and talents and loves,
yet none of them convert into real paying jobs. Am I doomed to live
the condition of adulthood this way?
I can escape through art... but only temporarily.
Sunday night, I stay up until 5am... troubled by the fear of going to
work again on monday...
I need a vacation.... i need freedom from work. yet i need money to
pay back my student loans and my rent, etc. help!
--- In Kundalini-GatewayATnospamy..., joyful <joyful_fairyATnospamy...> wrote:
> PPS: And why not just quit your job, break your lease,
> sell everything you own and move to Hawaii first? If
> you're gonna do it, die someplace wonderful. Not to be
> flippant, but you can ALWAYS walk away from life's
> problems {except for physical illness}. Pack what you
> own into a car and MOVE.
> You are at choice.
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