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To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/01/21 16:27
Subject: [K-list] Re: suicide stuff
From: marraskuu1978

On 2002/01/21 16:27, marraskuu1978 posted thus to the K-list:

Joyful Fairy,

I totally agree. In fact I made that promise to myself last year.

If ever I become suicidal to the point where I have to dump life
completely, I will do it by deleting my environment, not myself.
Flee the country... run away from work, from debts, from stress. Just
buy a one-way ticket to somewhere nice like Europe and start a new
life, a new adventure.

I often dream of such an escape. The world of work is very evil and
often I feel there is no meaning in it all. I've been reading a lot
of the essays on www.primitivism.com
We live in a society where we grow food in order to lock it up and
make you work 40 hours a week to earn money to buy it back. I need
money to survive, yet my soul does not feel fulfilled from the work I
do. My most productive hours of the day, 5 days a week, are given
away. Perhaps I just haven't found what I want to do in life yet.

Incidentally, I have never tried yoga yet... but because of my
anxieties and low level of physical activity in life, I am convinced
kundalini will do me good. I will start yoga this week.

life is depressing me. I have so many hobbies and talents and loves,
yet none of them convert into real paying jobs. Am I doomed to live
the condition of adulthood this way?

I can escape through art... but only temporarily.

Sunday night, I stay up until 5am... troubled by the fear of going to
work again on monday...

I need a vacation.... i need freedom from work. yet i need money to
pay back my student loans and my rent, etc. help!

--- In Kundalini-GatewayATnospamy..., joyful <joyful_fairyATnospamy...> wrote:
> PPS: And why not just quit your job, break your lease,
> sell everything you own and move to Hawaii first? If
> you're gonna do it, die someplace wonderful. Not to be
> flippant, but you can ALWAYS walk away from life's
> problems {except for physical illness}. Pack what you
> own into a car and MOVE.
> You are at choice.


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