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Recieved: 2002/01/17 14:20
Subject: Re: [K-list] I need some support
From: Magdalene Meretrix
On 2002/01/17 14:20, Magdalene Meretrix posted thus to the K-list:
At 12:02 PM 1/17/02 +0800, Charles wrote:
>1. Is there a way of me conntrolling my back pain in the short term?
I was having acute lower back pain, so bad at times that I couldn't walk or
sleep. I don't know if what worked for me will work for you, so I can just
say that this is what I have done and leave it up to you to decide if this
is helpful to you or not.
Strangely enough, what has finally helped my back pain is walking. Of
course at first I couldn't do it very well or very long or every day. I
started by walking from my front door to the end of the block and back
again. It was very difficult and I moved very slowly, but I did it,
stopping to rest when I needed to. The next day, I was out and doing it again.
I walked with as close to complete focus as I could attain, one might say
meditatively. Every day that I was able to get out of bed and move at all,
I got out and walked. Finally I felt ready to try going around the block. I
had to stop and rest several times, but I made it all the way around the
block. It really hurt a lot! My back was piercing me, but I would just rest
when it got too bad and then continue. Some people told me that I was doing
bad to myself, that I shouldn't do things that hurt me, but something
inside me knew, instinctually, that this was what I had to do.
Every day that I could get up and move, I went out and walked once around
the block. After a couple of weeks, I could do it without stopping to rest
so I started walking twice around the block every day. I always kept my
walking focused and meditative and wouldn't allow anyone to walk with me
who wanted to chat or otherwise distract me from the work I was doing.
It's been a year since I started that and now I can walk around the block
twelve times before I get tired and have to stop. I usually walk around
nine times per day. I could feel a real difference when the ground was icy
and I couldn't get out and walk. My back started hurting again and I began
sinking into depression. As soon as the ice melted, I went out and walked
and afterwards I felt like I was glowing and high. I think my back hurt for
so long because the one thing I most needed to do was something that hurt
too much to consider doing so it took me years before I realized what my
body wanted me to do.
Like I said, this is just my own story and may have nothing to do with your
situation. Try meditating or self-hypnotizing and ask your body what it
wants you to do. Does it want you to eat a certain thing or stop eating
something? Does it want you to swim? To walk? To rest? Your body knows what
it wants and if you listen to it, it will tell you. My body told me that I
had to keep moving or I would sink in the quicksand and drown. It may sound
nuts, but it actually told me that in words: "Keep moving or die." I figure
if those were my options, I'd try moving for now and if I didn't like it,
I'd go ahead and die and see where that took me. It turns out that I'm not
quite ready to die yet, so I'll keep moving until my body tells me to do
something else.
Best wishes with your pain management and your kundalini experiences and
many blessings to you.
Agape,
M
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