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Recieved: 2002/01/08 03:54
Subject: Re: [K-list] dreams.......
From: Mia
On 2002/01/08 03:54, Mia posted thus to the K-list:
Mystress wrote:"Water usually represents spiritual energy, and a house represents the
body. Possessions represent ego attachments. The dream is of two women, the
one who welcomes the spiritual flow with open windows and needs nothing
else, and the one who closes the windows to protect her attachments.
You say the houses were not yours... but you were the one making
decisions about whether the windows were open... so likely they do
represent the body.
It could mean that you are moderating your energy so your Shakti will
not affect other people too much. We have all seen how the high energy of a
full moon can stir stuff up, and you know the energy of a person can have
the same effect."
Thank you Mystress and the others for your help with the dreams.......
taking what you all are suggesting into consideration and looking back on what has changed in my life during the period of time covered by the dreams, i come to the following conclusions:
I had difficulties to " incarnate" fully for a long time.... i didn't really " want" to be here. I was " homesick" and sad and angry about myself, because i chose the "human path".
I had dreams of being ' one" with the ocean and i wanted to go " back" .
During this phase i had the dreams standing at the ocean, embracing the wave which would drown me. There was nothing between me and the ocean.....there was nothing i had to consider.......
some years later when Kundalini started up the " house" was empty when the water came. To me it seems this house is what i manifest.......
at that point in time there was not much i manifested. I channeled a lot of things, but i still wasn't really here, not incarnated enough, not grounded enough to " manifest". I didn't take responsibility for what i did....didn't commit...... well..... in a way i did, but not in a " grounded" way...... it's hard to explain the difference.....
Now the water comes again and a lot has changed. With my artwork and my poetry i have started manifesting what i have to give, what Divine Essence can give and show through me.
Since i was very young there was only one thing i was scared of: coming back " home" after death and finding out, i could have done more, i could have done better, i could have given more to mankind, i could have shown more of Divine Love, channel the Divine in a more complete way.....
This fear is gone since i'm doing this artwork. Now it feels i give what can be given through me 100%..... it feels " complete".... it feels so complete, that there is no " path" any longer.
It feels as if there is " THIS" in every moment and every other moment is just a repetition of " THIS". It feels, being able to experience this moment of completeness makes every next moment unnecessary.
I'm also for the first time in my life deeply committed to a relationship and a " home". The home is not " mine" and the belongings are not " mine", but because it's the home of my partner and it's the animals i love and the place on Earth i took responsibility for, i feel, i have to protect these things.
There is a very fine line between attachment and caring........ I feel, it's important to take care, to value, to be aware of all the things that are serving us. In the past i tend to be careless with things...... what does " things" matter, i felt........
now i'm learning to appreciate every tool, every machine, every piece of furniture and try to see the Divine in it.
I never was attached to things. I could give away everything.....and i did......several time i gave away whole households before i went on. I still can do that. BUT ...as long as it's here, i feel i have to take care of it now, i have a loving feeling....almost something like tenderness towards the things around me..... full of gratitude.....
So yes, the house isn't empty any longer and i don't want things to get damaged or even destroyed. So i leave the house to meet the next wave?
How does that work out in reality?
hm..... i guess, i will find out soon........
thanks for listening
love
mia
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