To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/11/25 11:40
Subject: Re: [K-list] Love Poll
From: siska

Gulp, here goes...

>
> Questions:
>
> 1. How many times have you fallen in love?

Four
>
> 2. Was this before, during or after your K awakening (if applicable)

The first woke it up.

> 3. What symptoms did you manifest?

Assume you mean love by this, not k??? I'm very rarely attracted to men.
It's like something inside me separates the wheat from the chaf. Then when
I do it's like incredibly strong magnetic force, loads of synchronicity etc.
I get close to psychic - I just need one look and just know something big's
going to happen. It's in the eyes!! The resulting catalystic/energy
exchange is dramatic, short lived, intense - and leaves me in pain at least
18 months after.... sob

There have been immensely strong parallels between all the guys and my dad,
(unconsciously recreating struggles/dynamics of the relationship etc.)

 Now I'm sorted with my Dad. The current one with pick n mix man is
reflecting my Grandfather. A very dominating personality who lived with us,
and who died June aged 99 just as I encountered pick m mix man - so there
is a strong energy at work. (eek is there no end to my dysfunctional
relations...)

> 4. If after or during K awakening, what was different (if anything) about
> the experience?

Have not experiened love before K awakening. All I can say is each
experience acts as a catalyst for further growth - usually painful. Or for
something big that needs to happen. It's like I integrate more parts of
myself through encounters with others. So these guys really do move me up
and on. But also once the 'exchange' of energy has been made, increasingly
I lose myself less, can get out faster and recover faster - since I'm
rounder and more self sufficient as a individual. And have heaps more self
esteem....

This is my pattern whether it's love or less than that.

> 5. Have you made a love connection with anyone on the K list (optional!)
;)

Take me I'm yours.

> It's very quiet here! I guess we in the US are all are recovering from
> Thanksgiving dinner! :))
>
> Love, Hillary

>

>

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