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Recieved: 2001/11/04 09:11
Subject: [K-list] Scars Re: picture
From: Divine Goddess
On 2001/11/04 09:11, Divine Goddess posted thus to the K-list:
Hi Jose,
I have scars too. I picked up 6 new ones from having surgery this
summer. I suppose I should be happy it isn't one long big zipper
looking one going from my navel to my breast bone because the surgeon
used a laprascope and some other instruments so I wouldn't have to be
cut open like that...but they are ugly still the same because my
belly was one of the last places on my body that was smooth and
creamy looking.
I have other scars too. I was a little tomboy as a kid. In american
slang that was someone who would rather run and play with the boys
when she is a little grrl rather than play with dolls and dress up
like Mother. So I have fallen out of trees, rolled down rocky cliffs,
stepped and fallen on nails, fell off horses, bikes and cows, ran
into sharp things, etc. etc. etc. As an adult I picked up a few from
being burned, car accidents, and from just being adventruous. I have
been stitched up a lot.
They bug me because I heard all my life my father saying to
me, "Ladies take care of themselves so they have soft, smooth
skin", "Women are meant to have pretty skin so don't play so rough."
So I have some old shame feelings about not being female enough still
around my appearance because my skin looks like a battlefield in some
places. I don't have those nice flat scars. Mine usually look like
the keloid type...raised, pink, and a little contorted and I have
some skin discoloration.
I have been told I should be proud of my scars, they are like badges.
Today body scarification is part of the modern primitive movement.
People mark their body to show some kind of internal event in their
lives, like tattooing. Maybe I should get a tattoo but I am something
of a baby on painful procedures although I have a high pain tolerance.
One can erase physical scars with hypnotherapy and visualization and
rejuvenate the skin but it takes a couple of months of daily
practice. I am not disciplined enough to do it. Someday I will make
myself a tape to listen to and that will make it easier.
Some healers will tell you that scarring and it's extent and
appearance depends on your emotions. I find that true because I am
amazed at how sometimes on me the same kind of wound will sometimes
produce a horrible scar and sometimes it won't. On one finger where I
had 2nd degree burns past almost all the layers of skin, down to the
fascia, which required my hand to be wrapped in a huge bandage for
weeks, there is just the tiniest, faintest dot. On my shoulder where
there was just a surface burn is the ugliest, wormy looking, itchy
raised scar that is finally not so prominent as it used to be. I was
burned over 5 years ago by non fire safe curtains falling on me that
were on fire. The burning material melted into my skin.
The skin is wonderfully malleable. Visualizing healthy skin cells
growing and multiplying to take the place of the malformed ones is
doable. The skin replaces itself constantly. We just replace the
memory of the scars with the memory of healthy skin at the cellular
level.
I use hypnosis a lot, almost every day in the form of CDs and tapes.
Right now I am using hypnosis for all over immune strengthening and
general well being. It is wonderfully effective. Soon I will be able
to fine tune it with more specificity about things like the scars.
My little self is still scared and uncomfortable with such surface
things like physical appearance. Loving and comforting my little self
makes a big difference. Friends who love me just the way I am help
too. :)
Just sharing a little of my own experiences.
Love,
Susan
--- In Kundalini-GatewayATnospamy..., José H <jose.gitanaATnospamx> wrote:
> Hi everybody,
>
> Great to see some faces! I've added a picture of me in the folder,
last year or so in Barcelona.
> Comfortably hiding my car-accident scars in the shade....
>
> Love, Jose
>
>
>
>
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