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Recieved: 2001/10/30 09:08
Subject: Re: [K-list] Fw: Tantra Course Notes
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent


On 2001/10/30 09:08, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:

At 09:24 AM 29/10/01, L. J. Klinsky wrote:
>I couldn't get this message to Mystress directly due to fatal errors, so
>I'll see if it'll make it to the group:

    Heh.. probably inappropriate, but I'll respond anyway.

>----- Original Message -----
>From: L. J. Klinsky
>To: MystressATnospamfire-serpent.com
>Sent: Monday, October 29, 2001 9:10 AM
>Subject: Tantra Course Notes

>Dear Mystress,
>
>I want to thank you for opening your Fire Serpent Tantra course to
>Kundalini Gateway group members for five days, free of charge. Being out
>of work presently, I am finding this to be a Goddess-send. I've been
>learning all I can from you, and I truly appreciate your knowledge and
>sharing.

    Thank you.

>I thought you might want to know the following three things about your
>site because I would want to know the same about my sites:
>
>1. Many of the email links at the bottom of lesson pages return a The page
>cannot be found error; I learned this when I tried to email these comments
>to you from lessons.

    Yeh, probably. This mirror version of the site is not complete, the tea
room is missing because the bulletin board is private for my students. I
did not install the cgi to drive the web form to email me, either. Everyone
has my email address from the post that invited you to take a look, so it
did not seem necessary.

>2. I could not get the Audio-Only links to work on any lesson pages,
>though I have the newest version of Real Player installed. The counter
>moves but no sound...

    If you were running realplayer to view the videos, you have to shut it
down completely and restart it to get the audio only version to work.
Otherwise your computer reads that a program is already using the sound
card. A bug in the system, nothing to be done.

>3. The Realmedia Videos are ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL, empowering,

    Thanks...

> when I can get them to work. I literally have to leave the room to
> listen to them! Otherwise they "crap out" every couple of seconds. The
> videos stop or go blank or the sound goes dead. I don't know if this is a
> bandwidth issue or what. Talk about frustrating! I don't think I'm
> powerful enough to do this psychically, but I can't figure out what's
> going on. I've tried checking the videos out at peak and non-peak hours
> with the same results.

    heh heh... well, realplayer is still relatively new technology, and I
find it sometimes craps out no matter whose vids I am watching, and I am on
cable.. That is why there is a transcript of each vid at the bottom of the
lesson. I wanted the audio filed to be smaller bandwidth, but my biz
partner, who did the production and hosts the vids set it up so that if is
the same file being streamed, only not showing images.
    However, technology aside... if the vid was only working when you were
not in the room (LOL!!) then it is likely a side effect of the
Shakti-charge they carry. That is a whole other technology... :) Here is
the gift: "when two or more are gathered" works through time, and through
cyberspace. When you are fully focused on watching the vids and receptive,
I am there with you, and I am strong enough to fry computers, but the
transmission is modulated so that it only makes some quirk, like
interrupting the stream. A later lesson teaches you how to make a bubble
spell to protect your computer from the Shakti charge, and I know which
students have actually done their homework by whether they can interact
with me via vid or chat without program errors interrupting.
The Shakti-charge on this course, especially each video is no joke,
and that is partly why I have not opened the course to a free preview
before. Students are advised to take the course at a rate of one lesson per
week, examined 3x.. a measured dosage that will enhance their progress
without overloading them. Obviously those who visit the preview will not be
so pacing themselves, so I gave it up to Goddess, to pace them...

>I do have one question for you, and I really hope you won't be offended by
>it. It deals with money. Apparently I have a big lesson to learn about
>this issue because all of my chakras are spinning madly right now, and I
>am scared to death of what you might say. But, without risk there is no
>growth, and I can ask through the fear, thankfully... I notice that you
>charge quite a bit for your services and classes.

Well... checking my mail, I see that others.. particularly Nick and
Percyval have already answered this better than I can, and that is a gift
of Goddess because I doubt I could really go into this with you and not rip
you to shreds and bust out cryin'. Not at you, specifically, but at my
frustration with people who hold that attitude, and old scars of burnout
from giving too much of myself away.

   Altrusim = burnout, and that is my mantra these past few weeks, because
it is a hard lesson I have learned over and over again these past years
since the K-list cyberspace universe became a full time volunteer job for
me in 1997. Reading your post, I can feel the scars of burnout in my
body... scars of giving too much too often and crashing. There are times
when I would like to raise the price for the course a hundredfold, to
better represent its true value, and to weed out people like you who are
too deep in scarcity consciousness to be motivated to give something back
for what they get.

    It is unfortunate that it has taken me this long to apply what I
learned as a Pro-Dom, to being a spiritual teacher. I have had a thousand
naked men kissing my feet, showering me with proclamations of adoration and
gratitude, because it makes them feel good... and it can be very pleasant,
but it does not mean a thing. Talk is cheap. It does not pay the rent or
put food on the table. It does not pay for internet hosting or the charges
to stream nearly 5 hours of video.

    People who really care, will often show it by putting their money where
their mouth is. They will make sure the transaction of life energy is
win/win... and it is a measure of their own self worth, that they do so.
That they feel abundant enough to do so... and it turn the universe gives
them more abundance for their faith. My greatest appreciation goes out to
those few sponsors, who paid me, not what I asked for, but what they felt
my teaching was worth, to them... as much as they could give. If not for
their generosity, none of the resources you have gained so much from, would
exist.

> This doesn't sit right with my heart. I get, how you say, a
> gut-wrenching feeling, when money is requested for spiritual healing and
> information. I mean no disrespect and only seek to learn what I am to
> learn from this. Some say money is just a form of energy exchange, but it
> does not feel that way to me. I've made tons of money in my life, and
> I've made none, like now. It's always felt "funny" to me.
>
>All the money issues withstanding, I am VERY grateful for what you've
>allowed me to learn with this five-day opportunity. Thank you.

    Well, Leslee, with words you spew appreciation for the value of what I
offer, and then when it comes to actions, you show that you really think my
gifts, time and attention is worthless. Actions speak louder than words, so
I am not surprised that the contradiction has you in turmoil. Money is a
medium of the exchange of life energy. If you are working at a job, then
you are trading the hours and moments of your very life to get it. Money is
an incredibly useful, flexible medium of exchange... a wonderful invention,
really.
   Blessings...


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