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Recieved: 2001/10/11 02:29
Subject: Re: [K-list] Amaizing experience......
From: José H
On 2001/10/11 02:29, José H posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Sean,
Thanks for your wonderful contribution on your experiences. YES!!!
Keep filling yourself up with love, yourself and Goddess.
Love and blessings,
José
>
> Hey all,
> Just had an amaizing experience. Just today I finally realized how
> as an empath you have to fill yourself up with your own self or
> love.. or Goddess to ever get anywhere without getting ripped apart
> from everything around you. So I've been thanking my unconcious all
> the time. I feel it grow in me. Filling me up with good things. This
> has given me a lot of energy too. Its new.
>
> So at the end of the day I'm in my lavander bath (weeee) and I hear
> a girl calling my name again and again. I know who it is, and I know
> that I'm supposed to get in touch with Goddess. I was on break from
> all of this... So when I connect up I see Goddess there with a child
> in her arms.. and its me.. I am the little baby, and I'm glowing very
> nicely. Then I see myself as a small little almost developed baby in
> a womb, and I'm glowing gold there too. I see this, and am part of
> it at the same time. Its very nice. I am the baby in Her arms again
> and she tells me that she will be there for me. She will be the
> mother that I never had. Someone who cares. Someone who loves. I
> started crying, I couldnt believe it.. It felt so good.
> So I have a lot of energy left but I fall asleep... Then I'm half
> awake half asleep and I know something is up. My energy is raising
> like crazy.. I am getting images of people, places around me... Loud
> noises, crowds staring at me. Who? Alaskan indian totems? All sorts
> of new things. I just surrender it...let it go... nothing doing...
> hmm... I try to go back to sleep... It gets worse. I'm getting
> worried. I wake more up and surrender it some more... nothing
> doing... Ok this is getting a bit too much...
>
> Right then I feel something start moving from my heart area up my
> chest and into my throat. OK... this just got serious! This must be
> what everyone talks about as the snake that moves in you... This
> thing was trying to run up my throat but was like it was running into
> a wall and did not stop, just kept pushing... I'm terrified! My
> Throat really hurts now, its hard for me to breath. I'm surrendering
> to it. just letting it go.. But its not good enough. I just let it do
> its thing... Not good enough...
> "Stay calm, stay calm, think. you need to think... what do you know
> about this? It must be hitting some blocks in me. Ok OK, just dont
> fight it, let it go... I might have to clear the blocks... I wish
> everyone would go the hell away so I can think!! Damn... Think
> think...Ok, first step, brain off... lets see whats going on with my
> spirit... Somethings there all right... Its hitting things in my
> throat area. I cant see them too good though... damn, where is this
> at?"
>
> I send my conciousness to my throat and wait. If I cant see them, I
> will wait till they show themselves to me. I'm getting really paniced
> now...
> "Stay calm, stay calm what have you learned? Dont fight it... clear
> the blocks...THERE!"
>
> LIES LIES LIES!
>
> What lies? I dont lie... No image either, wheres the icon?
>
> LIES LIES LIES
>
> Ok, tell me more...
>
> I see myself clearly at around 15, horrably guilty about things.
> Telling what appears to be lies to people. I remember the scene now.
> I did feel horrable about that. But then I understand a lot more now.
> This was not a big deal. This was not something to make a huge mess
> out of, making me feel bad and twisting me up over nothing. I realise
> that this is not my problem. I forgive myself for even being in the
> situation and tell myself how things really happened. Not my
> distorted version of how I lived it. I send myself love and ask
> Goddess to do the same, to give him the understanding I have now. To
> let it go. I give it to Goddess in timeline fashon.. I feel a lot
> better... But the pressure is still there...
>
> This thing is going to kill me.. I cant do this fast enough... There
> are a lot of things here...
>
> Back waiting for another one.....waiting...seeking it out... Heres
> one!
>
> I'm about 7 years old. My first confession and communion. I see it
> all so clearly with my white suit and everyone around me. Why do I
> feel so bad? I thought everyone was supposed to be happy? Why did
> confession make me feel horrable? Why is what I did so wrong? Its not
> wrong at all! I hate that! How is it all wrong? I feel bad.. DAMNIT!
> I totaly forgot about this. I started to forgive myself for
> everything, for even listening to them. To their lies. For not
> listening to myself and the knowledge that I had at the time. For
> beleiveing them. Then I tell myself the true way. How I was right,
> and its not bad. It is all good and not a reason to feel bad about. I
> send more love and ask Goddess in again to take it all in timeline.
> Why dont these explode? I cant stay too long.. But I do see the whole
> scene fade into a black and white photo in a picturebook. Like its
> been settled. Its a part of my past now. Resolved. Done. Muscles
> relax all over my body. I feel like another block is gone from my
> throat..
>
> Oh man horrable images are showing up, but I dont have time to deal
> with them. I call in some Archangels by instinct and ask them to deal
> with anything thats not a block and then just to line up the blocks
> so I can get them all as fast as I can do them. And for once in my
> life keep these damn things off of me so I can think!
>
> I cant breath...I cant swallow...
> I'm 4.... I am given lies. I belive them. They twist me. I resolve
> them.. Timeline... Done..
>
> I am 14... More of the same...
>
> I am 6... more...
>
> This is all so clear. Like I am there again in time. No distortion.
> Time travel...
>
> This goes on for quite a while. I finally feel things start to calm
> down. I still work like crazy. I see my life is one big huge
> mismanagment. I cant stop. I'm doing this as fast as I can. Explain
> here. Resolve here. Replace lies with truth there.. DONE DONE DONE
> DONE....
>
> I dont know how long this all took. But I can breath again and I'm
> not afraid of it anymore. All that crazy rushing energy is almost all
> gone. All the things around me are all gone. I'm pretty happy. I
> figured this out! Its all... wait.. one more... its a little skull..
> I'll deal with it tomorrow... Maybe I better do it now...
> Its from a few months ago! When I first talked with Mystress
> Angelique.... She said to thank my unconcious... But I never really
> understood what it's real meaning was until today, never used it like
> I should.. It took me a few months to get it all together by reading
> on the k-list and my own syncronicity. I could have saved myself a
> lot of trouble... Its ok.. I know now.. Let it go. Forgive. Resolve.
> I understand now.. Timeline.. Done...
> I feel around... All done... My throat is sooo sore.. But I'm OK! :)
> I made it! Thank you Goddess! I feel so much better now.. About
> myself, about who I am. With a new understanding about life and the
> things that can affect you as you go along.
>
> Whew!
>
> I cannot believe the force of that thing! It really does try to kill
> you. It pushes like mad! It tries to drive you nuts. For me that
> wasn't a problem though. I've actually seen worse haha.. Not an
> issue. But the force was intense. (rubs throat, breathes again) I
> dont know what happened really. But its all done for now.
>
> I am very very thankfull to everyone on K-list and Mystress
> Angelique and all the writing that she does. If this had happened
> without the knowledge I've read from here... I might not have been
> writing this post at all. What an experience! I'm also pretty glad
> that I was shown how to take care of the blocks. Would have been bad
> otherwise...
> Thanks everyone.
>
> I'm going back to bed now :)
>
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