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Recieved: 2001/07/18 12:19
Subject: [K-list] to: Joyful Fairy
From: Tracy Miller

Dear Rebeckah,

Thank you for your kind words. :)

Tracy
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From:  joyful fairy <joyful_fairyATnospame...>Date: 
Wed Jul 18, 2001  5:56 am
Subject:  Re: [K-list] Here's a better format
ofprevious e-mail

Tracy, congratulations on breaking out of the
victimconsciousness grip!
YAY! :) It is a wonderful, empowering thing, and apart
of really claiming
your power as Creator. :) And, *facing your chaos*will
only be as *hard* as
you believe it will be. It can be easy and fun if
youchoose. Just decide
that it will be. Be easy on yourself and remember
thatthere is no wrong way
to live your life. You're a beautiful soul havinghuman
experiences. There's
really no *wrong* in an experience. Right and wrongare
just judgements of
the world of duality. Go higher and it all gets fuzzy.
What I have learned in my recent freedom from
victimstate of mind is that
there were aspects of victim in many areas of my
life.Like the *filter* as
Mystress Angelique uses the term, has covered
manydifferent parts of my
life. So I *saw* many/most things through that
filterall my life. Now that
the core filter piece is gone, there's a kind
ofresidue, or smaller filters
that are clearing out from my perceptions of
otherthings.
For example: I found myself holding back from*claiming
my power* because I
don't want to hurt others. Sometimes when you are
*inthe flow* you push
other peoples buttons. It's the action of
divinityworking through you in
order to create healing in others, and that
mirrorthing, but sometimes it
sucks to be in that spot of the aggravator. So, I
washolding back cuz I
didn't want to hurt others, but that was making
mehurt. So it became this
matryr complex about:*I'll suffer by not expressing my
light so that you
won't suffer from myexpression of it*
It was VERY subtle. Martyr is just another aspect
ofvictim. Only we're
victimizing ourselves. And self flagelation is
thebiggie in my world. :0
So, like all things, I found that with *my
issues*,there are layers of it
in me and just when I think I'm done I find
somethingelse. :) It's just a
constant housecleaning. LOL! :)Rebeckah

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