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Recieved: 2001/07/05 11:47
Subject: [K-list] Exophobia ....
From: Hansjoerg
On 2001/07/05 11:47, Hansjoerg posted thus to the K-list:
some years ago, i started my spiritual journey with (´m sure some
will say **ouuuch** now *s* ) with "reiki".
so, the last days a friend of mine, living in Italy asked me for a
initiation to 3rd-degree in distance. i told her, (just emphasized, i
don´t know her very well, met her just one time physically) that i
would be pleased to initiate her.
we fixed a date and time and i started to connect for initiation as
usual.
suddenly, when i connected to her, an immense energy-rush set up,
paranoias and fears apeared, coming out from my inner and shaking me
like an earthquake. suddenly i was feeling like a tiny frog, nothing
worth, mind-blowing blue, 160 heartbeats per minute, dissolving,
dissolving, dissolving, no shapes, neither of consciousness and
brain, nor of anything else, concerning my beeing.
i was really shocked about that, tried to understand, what the fear
was, where it came from, the origin, ... .... but nothing, ....
so i tried to ask my "guidance" ... and got an answere.
they told me: "my friend, u have exophobia and this night we will
take u to us ;-) "
** aha ** i thought, **what the heaven is exophobia? **
and what do they mean with *** take u tonight to us*?* ***
*am i completetly blue or are they? *
so, meanwhile gone for a dictionary to have a look on exophobia etc,
etc, .... but nothing satisfying found there. as usual. :-/
starting a second meditation and trying to let coming up that fear
again, .... it worked, but not as intense and beating as bevore . i
asked my guides and the beeings which presence i could feel to help
me, to clear away that energies, patterns and garbage, which leads
me to that paranoias and fear.
suddenly i was laying stiff in bed, a kind of beam out of my third
eye *at least i thought it was 3rd eye* , ... energyrush again,
suddenly my spine glowing golden ( the lower part) like a lamp
switched on and making a sound like "srrreeeennnnggggg* very loud
*at least i could hear it in my head *s* ....
i felt fears, had panic to die. after all i was swallowing a malaria-
medicine the last days and my physical condition wasn´t the best at
that particular night *gg*
the one thought i always had in my mind was, "let that stuff go, ...
out of ur energybody" again and again, like a mantra.
after a while i gave up fear and i didn´t care about that fear, i
noticed the fear, but it was like u see a green ball, recognizing,
okey, this ball is green, and it´s a ball. absolutely neutral. i am
sure that i could describe this proceeding in german language much
better , .. eheheh ;-)
so, some dark energies were taken away through that beam i had out of
my 3rd eye (so i had the vision) ...
and later i found myself waking up in the morning, ...
a little ( eheheh, much ) upside down ;-)
but ...
there was no real answere concerning exophobia . . . .
or was there one?
PS: some days later, we both ( italian friend and i ) got the
message, that she was once my mother, ... in a former life. *g*
love and laughter, ;-)
Hansjoerg
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