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Recieved: 2001/06/07 00:15
Subject: Re: [K-list] holy spirit - kundalini / Collette - Cristopher
From: Anne Elizabeth
On 2001/06/07 00:15, Anne Elizabeth posted thus to the K-list:
> Hi Anne Elizabeth - having read through your post below, I have a couple
of
> questions, (see edits below) but one thing that's coming through loud and
> clear is that you need to relax and trust in your process. This about
you
> and your spiritual awakening and however well meaning your christian
> neighbors might be, they can't possibly understand what you are
experiencing.
What if they are intentionally causing it?
> Trust what is - listen to your inner voice and trust that God/ess will
take
> you through this in the best possible manner for you.
Yes, I know and believe that this is true and thank-you.
> > I'm just confused about having so many awful feelings and reactions to
me
> in the mist of having such a wonder of spiritual awakening.<
>
> What exactly are the awful feelings and reactions you're alluding to here?
What I've mentioned below and I am not at all crazy about the sexual aspects
of it. Feeling like I'm going to explode from head to toe and through my
genitals. Sometimes the
feeling at my medula oblongata is not pleasant at all, it feels like
something I don't want or like is trying to enter instead of the beautiful
clear cosmic energy of god/ess. It is my response to these males and there
games, imo,I can feel it coming from them and feel
that the only way to get rid of it is to scream over and over and cry and
scream some more till it goes away.
It does not feel at all good to me yet they won't leave me alone.
> > I feel air coming out of my mouth even when I'm talking sometimes.<
>
> I experienced this also and truely wondered at it. I later attributed it
to
> the holy spirit breathing me... breathing new life into me.
So far for me this breath feels so separate, like an entity. I was in the
store the other day and could hardly talk with this air coming out as I was
speaking , people noticed and said 'that's scary'.
All of my symptoms coincide with the people that are harassing me.
> And then this extra breath is really wierd.. I also feel this buzzing
going
> around in my head like an electric trickle of some sort.<
>
> The energy changes your going through are revitalizing and reworking your
> cellular structure - just relax as best you can and go with it.
I believe that this is the case a clearing out of stuff. I wonder if it is a
clearing out of the forced actions that I've mentioned here.
> > Story:
> > I'm wondering why my concept of kundalini and my christian neighbors
> concept
> > of the holy spirit is in conflict. They admittedly are practicing
> "spiritual warefare" on > me.
>
> In what ways is this spiritual warefare being practiced?
They are doing something with entities I think. I heard and saw stuff that
was astounding. I wrote about it in a previous post several weeks ago. Also,
the missionary stated that they are practicing it. There's are web sight
about it. She said that
she would pray to Jesus with me, I guess to get the holy spirit and that I
can't do it alone and that meditation was dangerous. So I declined but she
said that she would pray for me. This could be a problem too. Maybe they are
all praying for me to be as they want me to be..lol This could be part of
their warfare.
> >I feel like my being is somehow negatively affecting the males in my very
> christian >reformed community.
>
> The nature of this energy is very strong and can be very sexual, will
likely
> attract males to you like a dog in heat. Is this what you're alluding to?
Not fun when your a celibate lesbian.
> I can only suggest that you spend quite time alone, if possible in nature
or an
> area of your home that is peaceful and comforting.
>
> > They see me as not having the holy spirit for some reason. I
> > am finding it difficult to survive their aggression. They seem to be
> having
> > a great time trying to break my spirit.
>
> People fear what they do not understand. Again, pay no mind to them and
> listen to your inner voice. In a manner of speaking, you are being
Christed
> through this process. You might want to check out this link. I found the
> information very comforting. <A
HREF="http://www.sol.com.au/kor/kor_08.htm">
> Knowledge of Reality -- Christ and the Kundalini</A>
Thanks
> >My neighbor is a missionary and shared this tid-bit of information with
me.
> She also said that only christians are saved.
>
> God isn't trademarked ;)
Exactly
> >And that they had saved many Hindus while in India,
> > where she said they turn teenage girls into prostitutes in the ashrams.
>
> And what of the alter boys that are molested by priests in christian
> churches?
> > Is hetero sexuality based on the holy spirit? It seems that they have
> sicked
> > their boys and men on me with their holy spirit whack-offs day and
night.
Well I guess that since they outed me without my permission that they are
the type to believe that they can and will change my sexual preference
without my permission as part of their spiritual warfare.
> > Is ther goal to deplete my sexual energy so that I have no god-given
> control
> > over my own chakras. I would like some light to be given to me on this
as
> it
> > is dibilitating and spiritually devastating to me.
> > Has anybody ever heard of electrically doing this to a woman?
I sware that they are using some sort of electrical device and hypnotism to
help them accomplish their mission. One night I had a mike on in my living
room and there was a force field of energy so strong that I could hear the
sound of it as I moved through it. And sometimes it feels as though they are
trying to kill me with it and the symptoms are unlike any that I've
discussed above.
> > I am trying to master my spiritual penis to fen them off.
>
> I'm not sure exactly what your saying here.... can you expand on the
above?
It helps to sense my androgynous self to protect my vulnerabilities from
their shenanigans.
> > These people don't see the love and light that I have. It seems that
they
> > see me as an alien or something.
>
> They don't understand because they haven't experienced it. Don't try to
> explain it as they will likely think you're going off the deep end
You
> aren't, it's just that things of this nature can't be explained to someone
> that doesn't have the capacity to understand - and that capacity is only
born
> of the experience itself.
Yes
> > Thank God that I have friends and this list which I love!
> Amen to that.... Me too!
>
> Love Colette
Thank-you Colette,
Namaste
Anne Elizabeth
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
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