To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/05/18 08:44
Subject: Re: [K-list] Yvhv
From: Recoveringserena
On 2001/05/18 08:44, Recoveringserena posted thus to the K-list:
In a message dated 05/18/2001 2:28:58 PM W. Europe Daylight Time,
CLEOCATRAsATnospamaol.com writes:
> Interestingly enough, the reason I prefer the name Yvhv is for the very
> reasons that have been displayed on this list lately, it is a name which
> draws many views and responses and to us, attaches less definitive images
of
> gender, social predispositions etc. The other thing I enjoy about this
name,
> is the colorful history that comes along with it in the Jewish community.
I suppose I prefer the name I use because it has
such a strong gender aspect, and also colorful
history.
In some ways I can't believe we aren't beyond picking on one another
for how we name the divine; but then, to do so is human and
many of us are understandably sore based on our histories. I am sore.
I admit that there is at least one religion that for me causes a shutdown-
I really don't think I can hear anything from someone using the
particular language of that religion. I read a novel, and
caught a show on the BBC
a while back describing some of the history and positive aspects of
this particular religion- which helped me to understand and appreciate why
it has grown so quickly, and the good things its followers find within it.
I guess that was some healing for me; I found some acceptance
and am no longer so troubled when I run into members of that
religion.
I think one of the more difficult aspects of the divine has selected me,
or I have selected her, for my work now... I struggle routinely
with what is required of me and it seems like I fail over and over in the
short run, only to look back over the course of a year or two and
note the enormous distance travelled. She is remaking me, perhaps
simply as I was always supposed to be, but I am becoming something for which
I can find few roles models or exemplars.
Maybe that is why I, and presumably
other people, need this k-list so much... while we may have some similarities
in our k-awakenings, it seems like the end result of the k-process is
to turn us into utter individuals and that means stepping off the map into
the unknown. That requires, among other things
at times, going beyond ordinary good advice, and even
going beyong everything ordinary.
I am reminded of one of the King Arthur stories... Guinevere had been
carried off by bandits I believe, and Lancelot was riding hard to
recover her... he galloped his horse to death in his haste for her rescue.
So he was continuing on, on foot, as fast as
he possibly could after the bandits...
and along comes a dung cart, making quicker time than he was managing
on foot.
Lancelot hesitated for three entire steps before jumping on,
because he did not want to ride on the cart with the dung.
When Lancelot finally caught up to the bandits, and rescued Guinevere,
she would not look at him. She ~knew~
about those three steps, that he had tarried in her rescue, he had not
given himself completely.
Sigh. Today, I am for sure those three steps behind.
Serena
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