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Subject: [K-list] Severed
From: felix

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Sent: Thursday, May 03, 2001 1:04 AM
Subject: [K-list] Severed

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> Will this feeling CATapult me into seeking a mate?
> I guess I will make my attempt at just that...
>
> Anyone out there single and looking to attach to a
similarly enlightened
> being?
<>

> Blessings,
> Cat

Hi Cat,

I just got back from visiting a woman I have corresponded
with for the last coupla months. The visit was not so much
looking for a mate as to see what was there for me with this
person. I had not seen her image, we exchanged no pics, we
had just said what we felt in our hearts for each other. It
turned out she was ravishingly beautiful, but I would have
gone to see her even if she had blue hair and warts on her
nose.

We both thought we had given up the idea of a mate and had
accepted that our lives were pretty much set for whatever
remained. I have lived alone for 18 years, she for 14 years.
To say the least, we are set in our ways, and yet there was
this reaching out. It was tormentous for both of us in some
ways and terrifying in others. It opened possibilities for
both of us in ways we had not wanted to deal with. Sort of
like the warnings attached to looking directly into the face
of God. We kept waiting to get zapped into small piles of
dust for the impertinance we were displaying by having the
audacity to admit we still had needs. That God and
Revelation was not enough. Two so-called holy people
pretending to have ALL the answers...

The only real reason I play around on the internet is that I
am advertising...in One way or the other. My life is fairly
compartmentalized. Not many of the various people in any of
the several compartments gnow about the others. I
de-liberate-ly spread myself thin. None of the individual
pancakes get much more butter and syrup than the others.

In some ways I find offering myself up as the last supper to
be a final, despicable act of condescension. Bread and
wine...bread and wine.

Breath is the horse, mind is the rider...

felix

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