To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/04/12 21:47
Subject: Re: [K-list] My life
From: Lynne
On 2001/04/12 21:47, Lynne posted thus to the K-list:
Hi Judy,
What you've written below is oddly consoling to me. Something that
recognizes my experience right now. Which I wasn't doing very well.
Thank you.
Below are the answers that came to me for myself and my own situation as
I read your poem.
(I'm struggling with a situation that I want to be other than it is. To
keep my relationship with another congruent, I have to forsake the
spiritual path that most makes sense to me and accept a slower one. Or
to keep the path that I understand, I have to abandon having an
affiliation with this person and my practice community. And it does
suck. I keep hoping for a middle way.)
Judyhaha7458ATnospamaol.com wrote:
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Start Rant ..... This sucks
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> Whether you believe or not
> Think as if you do.
Yes, some faith would be good at this moment
> Stop the blind effort.
I do need to stop thrashing
> Ask youself what you need.
> Success at the moment is not in your interest.
The "success" I'm focusing on won't nourish me
> Turn to silence.
That silent mind heals
> Nothingness.
There is nothing to fear in the dharmakaya
> Where you are is where you have to be.
Where I am **is** where I have to be
(So why do I persist in trying to make it elsewhere)
> No, you are not wise.
I feel puny and small
> This is difficult.
Yeah, it is
> Grasp your folly and you grasp yourself.
> What you have eaten is merely unripe fruit.
Maturity brings richness. Allow things to ripen
> So, now.
> Learn to fast.
Let go
> Do without.
Give it up
> Be absent.
Don't continue to invest in the unfruitful
> Keep the eyes closed.
> Keep the mind steady,
> What you see you will also understand.
[Remember] you always have before
> No visions except in darkness.
These are the ones that bring light (its not a cliche, the ones that
come from the depths of still mind have always made a difference,
brought me light and relief)
> Listen to the voice that is not your own
Listen to the dharmakaya calling
> Then move again without remorse or guilt.
No apologies
> Love
> Is more concerned about your fate
> Than you have ever been.
Perhaps this is true
> That is why you have survived.
I have survived haven't I?
Maybe that is why
Although I often act like I haven't
> Express your gratitude by giving what you have to give.
Its amazing how full the heart can be in the midst of so much personal
turmoil
> You may get nothing in return.
Freely given
> And bear your restlessness with grace.
Yes - This is the sentence that triggered me to go back and re-read the
rest above. If here is where I am and must be, then at least I can try
to, as you said, bear it with grace.
Much love to you,
Lynne
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> Help ......Judy
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