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Recieved: 2001/02/14 16:25
Subject: Re: [K-list] The Injustice of being a Moon child
From: percyval


On 2001/02/14 16:25, percyval posted thus to the K-list:

hiya Chris,

i was just wondering how things were going for you the night before your
post arrived to the list... it's great to hear you sounding so well-grounded
and strong...

----- Original Message -----
From: "Chris Seidel" <frenchfunkATnospamhotmail.com>
> That is why I feel such gratitude to people like Angelique (I feel
like
> i am kissing butt here but oh well) -- who have shown me that sexuality is
> something sacred in and of itself, and it is we that attach the unneeded
> stigmas and repulsion to it. Man, is it refreshing to hear. And I want
to
> hear more...

well, if you are going to kiss butt, you couldn't find a better one to
kiss... *grin* ... i thought i understood most of what there was to
understand about sexuality... but Mystress Angelique has taught me that
there are no limits to the heights of sexual ecstasy, and how to learn about
it from the Source deep within me, my inner Divine Beloved... and it is all
the more amazing that she was able to do this long distance from across the
continent... this first stage of this teaching is available in her first
course www.fire-serpent.com , and there are plans in the works for 2 more
sections of the course to be developed that will get deeper into the sexual
aspects of Mystress's teachings...

> (snip)
> In any case, it was ultimately not my church that made me do what I
> did - accept a certain set of "moral", religious and philosophical codes
> that were not truthfully my own -- but myself. The more I found myself
> blaming my culture, parents, peers, etc., (and I still do it- man I'm
still
> not over it -- it might be awhile) -- the more I felt wracked on the
inside
> -- guilt having my sexuality that was totally fine in the first place and
> guilt for repressing and not doing what my true inner self whispered to
me,
> but my dumb ears didn't want to hear.

> It was only through this petrification process that I finally hit a
> wall within where crisis was inevitable. I knew deep inside that it was
> going to happen, but I was too ignorant to listen to MY TRUTH instead of
the
> truth given to me.
> (snip)
> Coming to that place consciously, taking responsiblility for my own
> thoughts and attitudes has been a challenge since my mind is so geared in
> looking for blame in the attitudes of others.
>
> It is empowering when you deep down say to yourself "Now what I do is
> not because of them...but BECAUSE OF ME."

it is great that you are able take responsibility for your preveious choice
despite being brought up in a cult with such a tightly developed system of
mind control... Chris, i am amazed that your Inner Voice was powerful enough
to reach through such a thick layer of repression... as i mentioned to you,
i had to do similar work to recover from what the Roman Catholic religion
did to my budding sexuality at such a young age...

keep on truckin' ... you're doing great!

warmly,

percyval



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