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Recieved: 2001/01/10 14:59
Subject: Re: [K-list] K for Kundalini or C for Crazy?
From: mistressofthe8thhouse
On 2001/01/10 14:59, mistressofthe8thhouse posted thus to the K-list:
----- Original Message -----
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent <MystressATnospamkundalini-gateway.org>
To: <Kundalini-GatewayATnospamegroups.com>
Sent: January 9, 2001 2:01 AM
Subject: Re: [K-list] K for Kundalini or C for Crazy?
> LOL!! then Goddess will handle it.
I believe that she has :-)
I feel much better today. Whether it was through your kind words of
encouragement and wisdom, or your focused efforts , I believe that you did
indeed make a difference. I only slept for 4 hours Monday night, yet I woke
this feeling like I had slept for ten. I managed to face a fourteen hour
work day yesterday with no sense of forboding, no overwhelming sadness :-) I
felt very focused, and actually looked forward to getting out of the house ,
which is something I haven't wanted to do for days. As I sat cuddling with
my boys yesterday morning I wondered exactly what all the tears had been
about. In an odd sense it didn't seem like it was me who had actually shed
them. All I felt was an overwhelming sense of gratitude and love.
> I have just taken a leap of faith and done something Goddess has been
> pushing me to do, for many years.. hang out my shingle as a professional
> intuitive healer, Kundalini Guide. cold feet cold feet.. but another
woman,
> an intuitive healer I have known for years, is very supportive and
> wonderful. Now I just need to collect some testimonials..:)
Perhaps you should have done it sooner:-)
>
> > > Your tears are only Karma releasing.. let them fall. I will lift,
> >what
> > > I can, so you can get back to better balance.
As I said, I DO feel much better. Some would say that my reaction is merely
psychosomatic, but I know in my heart that it is much more than that. :-)
> Oy, throw out what ever spook gave you that info!
<LOL> 'Twas a spook I encountered at a recent Pyschic Fair in Toronto....
>Everything is
> already forgiven, Goddess does not judge us, *we* judge us..
> If time and space do not exist, then there are not "past lives".
> Everything is happening concurrently. The Karma is from *this* lifetime,
> the tears that were not shed, in the past because .. just, because. You
> know why.
> It is the emotional baggage releasing, from this lifetime.. what
Wilhelm
> Reich called "body armoring". Stuck memories that were held in the body,
> letting go.. you feel them, on their way out! .. and when they are gone,
> you will be free of them.. free. You are safe now, you can take off the
> armor, warrior woman!
This warrior woman has held back tears for many years :-) I have always
feared that people would use my tears as weapons against me. I think I will
probably have to fight several more battles before I win the war, and
actually take off the armour ;-) I AM learning though.... Just very slowly
:-)
>
> If you like it, keep it. So long as you are not infringing on her
> business or impersonating her, she is not likely to care. I can give you
> her email in private mail, if you want to chat with her.
At this point she is probably not even aware of my existance. And I would
never dream of infringing on her business....The comment about changing my
name was purely a matter of principle :-)
> > I'm working to build a Kundalini retreat so people can do exactly
> >that..
>> In Canada.. in the mountains and big trees of the BC coastal rain
> forest. On an 11 mile long glacial lake that spills into a deep ocean
> inlet.. in an old hotel I dreamt, when I was 9 years old..
Big hugs to a sister Canadian!! I pray that Goddess will help make your
wonderful dream a reality :-) That is somewhere I would visit without
hesitation!!! I lived on Vancouver Island for a brief time back in the late
1980's and I loved it. It was absolutely beautiful there!!! Wasn't long
before I got homesick for Toronto though...
>
> I know, I was the same.. a Dominant personality won't surrender till
> they have no other option.. which makes the path of K., that much harder..
> because Goddess has to box us in and take control away, to do the work.
> This feeling of losing control and your trying to regain control is what
> has made the crying jag so much harder. Resistance is futile.. what God
> wants, God gets.
Goddess has given me countless opportunities over the years to surrender. I
recognize that now. I have always justified my control issues by telling
myself that the timing just wasn't right... For the longest time I had no
faith in anyone. At times not even myself. Getting to know the Goddess has
been a wonderful reminder that despite my cynicism, there is a very tender
heart underneath all this armour.
Love and blessings,
Jen
BTW....Thank you to everyone who offered their support and advice. I am
extemely happy to be a part of such a wonderful group of people :-)
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