To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/01/08 21:00
Subject: Re: [K-list] K for Kundalini or C for Crazy?
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/01/08 21:00, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 07:15 PM 1/8/01, mistressofthe8thhouse wrote:
>If you could give me a hand with it, I would be forever in your debt. :-)
:) Forever is a long time.. How about if I tune in on you and do what
I can, and if you like it you can throw money at me. :) Debt paid.
Your tears are only Karma releasing.. let them fall. I will lift, what
I can, so you can get back to better balance.
>It is starting to effect my work , and I am becoming very anti-social. My
>responsibilities are starting to feel like minor details in the big scheme
>of things.
Well, they are.. Our lifetimes are but a moment, in eternity..
What is your work? Are you the same Lady Scorpion I know from another list?
> Some of the list members have given me some excellent advice, and
>made some wonderful suggestions, including recognizing this as a cleansing
>period and letting things run their course.
Yep.
> I would give anything just to be
>able to seclude myself somewhere until these feelings pass,
I'm working to build a Kundalini retreat so people can do exactly that..
>but I can't. I
>have two small children and am a single mother. I cannot allow myself to
>fall apart or I will lose my kids.
Schedule some "falling apart" time for yourself, every day.. K. can
be negotiated with.. negotiation is not as good as total surrender, but
Goddess will understand.
>Things seem to be escalating in other areas as well. I have always had
>"prophetic dreams" of sorts, but they are beginning to be much more graphic,
>and much more detailed.
Sounds good! Useful.
> I dreamt of my first husband last week, who I
>haven't seen for quite some time. <snip> I took his advice, and as it
>turns out he was right.
This is a blessing, isn't it?
> That was some sort of catalyst for me, I think.
>It seemed to open a whole floodgate of emotions. It is not because I am
>still in love with him. I care for him yes, but I have a wonderful partner
>who I love very much.
I think.. that you have been a "Marlboro woman", toughing it out on
your own for so long, that finally realizing that you are *not* alone, that
Goddess loves you, and cares about what happens to you, that your ESPis
real and you are not crazy.. made the dam burst.. Love did it. Now all the
tears that you could not shed before because it was not safe to lose
control, all come spilling out.
Ever have a pain so severe that it takes your breath away, and you
cannot even cry for the shock of it? When it lets up a little, then you
cry. You have been so strong for so long.. in shock from pain so old and
chronic you were numb to it... and even now, you don't even know what
hurts.. It is love, that hurts... like warmth hurts when your feet are
very cold.
I am sending you more love.. a bit later tonight, when your kids are
asleep. It might make Kriyas like a panic attack or having a fit, getting
it all over with at once.. but it will pass within a matter of hours and
you will feel better after. Try to focus on gratitude, and be receptive.
I'll lighten what I can.
>Sorry for rambling... I just need to tell someone who is not going to judge
>me. My partner believes me , but he doesn't understand.
Don't be sorry, this kind of rambling is what the list is for.:) I
don't judge you, I see beauty in you. I think I understand.. :)
>Warmest blessings and many thanks,
>Jen
Blessings..... :)
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