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From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2000/11/16 06:49, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
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>From: "Jakob Ashtar" <2076248m001ATnospamstofanet.dk>
>To: <K-listATnospamKundalini-Gateway.org>
>Subject: From the K-list website.
>Date: Thu, 16 Nov 2000 14:27:52 +0100
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>IMPORTANT!!! : please reply DIRECTLY to my EMAIL :
><mailto:ashtarATnospampost4.tele.dk>ashtarATnospampost4.tele.dk
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>
>
>Hi
>
>My name is Jakob and I am 28 years old. I live in Denmark, Scandinavia,
>Europe.
>
>I am looking for an explanation to what I have experienced .
>
>
>Since 1987 I have experienced that my soul and conciousness leaves my
>physical body in the night when I go to sleep. I can do this willingly and
>I just need to relax in a certain way to obtain this type of experience.
>
>In the beginning it was very pleasant. I was flying around and I could
>virtually feel the wind blowing against my face and I could also hear the wind.
>
>Over the next couple of years it developed into something that was not
>pleasant.
>
>I began to feel the presence of another being.
>
>This being, which I prefer to call a monster, reveiled itself to me one
>night. I could see its evil eyes surrounded by blackness and I have
>struggled with it since until recently.
>
>Due to the scary experiences I had where I unwillingly entered an
>out-of-body experience I began to fight it to be able to sleep calmly in
>the nights.
>
>After some time the experiences where less frequent and came only in periods.
>
>But still...they happened. I would lay in my bed and go to sleep and
>suddenly I would find my self floating around outside my body. I would
>immediately feel that the monster was close and I would force my body to
>shake so I would wake up. The signs of the monster being close to me would
>manifest it self in high pitching sounds, like somebody was drilling in my
>ear .. I would also hear and feel the back of my brain vibrating, making
>deep humming noises and hear something crack in the back of my head (like
>the sound of paper being crushed in the hand). Even though I fought the
>monster it was stronger than me and it would hold me tight and I would
>have a big fight with it each time I was "out" of my body. Every time when
>I woke up from these experiences I would feel pain in the back of my head,
>I felt drained (I had no energy left in my body) and I felt my soul
>displacing itself in short, but very hard jerks from my body for 10-30
>seconds. One of the most scariest experiences I had with the monster was
>when I saw it fly into my stomach through my navel.
>
>The last 5-6 years have been an emotional rollercoaster for me. I have
>mostly been depressed with short periods of sudden joy (totally happiness
>which would last maybe 1-2 days). I have cried a lot and I have been very
>emotional and fragile.
>
>Until recently I have been very scared sometimes in the night. I was
>afraid each time I found my self "out" of my body. But for some reason
>something happened 3 days ago.
>
>I was going to sleep and I was relaxing in my bed. I was determined that I
>wanted to get out of my body. I succeeded and I immediately felt the
>presence of the monster so I quickly decided to wake up again. When I woke
>up I got this aftershock, where I felt my soul displacing itself from my
>physical body for 10-30 seconds. I felt a short and powerful jerk and for
>the first time I also saw a white, bright light for maybe 1 second. The
>jerk and the light happened at the same time.
>
>Yesterday, I was walking outside. Suddenly I felt like some kind of pure
>energy beamed down from the sky through my head. I felt my cheeks getting
>warmer and I felt goosebums all over my face. If I could see the energy I
>am sure it would look like a beam of light coming down from the sky
>entering through the top of my head. It felt so good. I suddenly felt very
>peaceful, joyful and full of love. I almost started crying. I also got a
>very strong feeling of being forgiven and a feeling of forgiveness.
>
>And the feeling has lasted. Today I still feel very peaceful. I feel that
>my life has become complete and I feel divine and at peace with myself and
>the whole world and universe.
>
>It is very hard for me to understand what has happened so I am desperately
>seeking somebody who is an expert on spiritual matters.
>
>2 days ago I was again blinded by a white light after waking up from an
>out-of-body experience. In this experience I was shown a book written in
>hebrew(?). The pages were turned very fast and I felt somebody was trying
>to give me insight and learn me something, but I didn't understand what
>was in the book. I just looked at the sentences and letters....
>
>Sometimes when I wake up from an OOBE I feel warm and then cold and then
>warm....etc..etc..maybe for 5 minutes and my thoughts are a total
>chaos...In these situations I feel emotionally out of control for a while,
>but I am lucky that I have a girlfriend that I can draw on when I need to
>relax...
>
>Since the incident with the energy entering my head from the sky, I have
>had days where my head felt like it was being squeezed.
>
>I hope you can help me by giving me some kind of explanation on what I
>should do from now on...I need some good advices how I should continue my
>"journey" towards becoming more enlightened...(because my intuition tells
>me that is the way I am heading)
>
>I have also tried to chant in my head while meditating (which is something
>I have never tried before)...I suddenly felt that my feet and my head was
>embraced by light and it felt like the light was entering these two
>points...What is this? It feels very overwhelming and I am not too sure
>whether I should surrender to this light and receive it !?!?
>
>Here is some questions:
>
>1) What is the light that is blinding me (when I close my eyes in the
>night and is going to sleep / or when I wake up from an OOBE)
>2) What is the powerful jerks that I feel when I wake up from an OOBE ??
>(it feels like my soul is displacing itself from my physical body in
>several short jerks)
>
>
>Sincerely,
>
>Jakob
>Denmark
>Scandinavia
>Europe
>
>
>
>
>email : <mailto:ashtarATnospampost4.tele.dk>ashtarATnospampost4.tele.dk
>
>
>
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