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Recieved: 2000/10/08 09:15
Subject: [K-list] energy/perceptual clarity and sex
From: J B
On 2000/10/08 09:15, J B posted thus to the K-list:
Hello
This is my first posting here.
I would like to ask whether anyone here (man) can relate to the
following:
It has to do with a felt drainage of energy following ejaculation.
My female partner is very loving (at least in the ussual term of that
word). She is more centered in emotions(mostly 'positive', romance
etc.) & body than I am.
My attention/energy/sensitivity is mostly foccused in the area of
chest and especially head and above head.
Her verbal communication can be rather chaotic, while I seem to need
a certain order on the verbal level. This can at times also result in
some energy drainage.
When sitting quietly, sometimes the top of the head starts
buzzing/vibrating in a quite blissful way.
Also a stream of 'energy' can be felt activated in the area of lowest
chakra, and rising to top of head, while the back/spine and neck
straighten out on their own, without my volition.
The frikvency of intercourse is relatively rare.
Even so, the drainage happens after the act and the symptoms are the
following:
- a feeling of having the head filled with 'cotton', sensitivity is
accutely dulled, headaches at the lower back of the head, and even
clarity of thinking is impaired. Also tiredness. From a
realtively 'sharp' and alive perception to a flat one.
When sitting, I would just fall asleep, which does not happen
otherwise.
This state can last from 2-4 days after the act.
It has turned the sex-realating into a kind of horror to avoid and
certainly not to look forwards to.
And a certain amount of guilt, and feeling sorry for her, on top of
it, since her needs are greater than mine.
I wonder whether there comes a time, when also this one has to let go
of.
Perhaps (?) this situation is due to lack of exerecise, or of age
(55) or simply because of the energy-pull upwards.
I know of the Tantric/Taoistic practices of conserving the energy,
with which I played around with a bit, but which do not attract me
since the ego is so terribly busy.
I told of this at some other forums, but they often make fun of it,
and lots of insults/4-letter words are thrown at me, while telling me
that it's ego-nonsense or that I am not the body.
I am not interested in a kundalini happening, or super-orgasm/sex or
other such stimulations.
When there is no sex for some days, the body/senses/perception
becomes alive, and able to notice the 'small things' and delicacy of
nuances outside and in the movements of the conditioned psychic.
A kind of wholeness of energy comes about.
So, can anyone relate to this ?
Can anything be done, without to much ego-doing ?
This situation has been there, for several years now.
And now I am at the point of terminating the relationship, which
brings its portion of suffering with it.
Your sharing would be appreciated.
jb.
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